i wear my sunglasses at nite...
well it's been a strange 10 hours. i went to bed last nite early cus i was mad tired. the *ex* calls at 1:30 and wakes me up. tells me he misses me..blah blah blah. we have a long talk. somehow we came to the conclusion of him coming over at 4 in the morning. so i got random sleep last nite, but i feel ok. just majorly confused. he doesn't want to mess things up with me and the *new* boy. and he was so sorry for everything he had done wrong in the past 5 months like not telling me he loved me when i said it to him. or not coming to see me when he said he would. or being mean to me and making me think he hated me. cus apparently he thinx about me everyday and how much he misses me. and he even writes those sappy love songs about me. and i think it hit him really hard when i said i was *kinda* seeing someone. i think the fact of 'i won't wait forever' finally got through his thick skull. but now i'm back to square one. and in some ways i love it. but some ways i hate myself for it. and i don't know what to do with any of this. it's super complicated. i just miss *him*. :( anyways, i'm off to work.