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[trapped_dying]

so it was another rather long day. woke up at 7am to sound of my fone ringing from him. we talked for a while. and i guess it was good to get all my feelings out. but nothing really matters anymore. i've learned so much through all this. it's good to give people your heart, just not the whole thing. or you'll lose control and then they'll take

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wow!

[withbrokenarms]

that shit was long miss ashley noelle clanton. just because i was a dick head to you and did what i did to you doesn't mean i never had those feelings for you. yes this is a public comment. yes everyone can read this. yes im sure after reading your previous journal entry people in the "l.j" community despise me. but it's okay. ill live i promise. people make mistakes, some bigger than others. some more often. the things i did to you were mistakes, but don't ever doubt for a moment the feelings i felt for you weren't anything short of real. i never ment to end up this way. i never ment to make the mistakes that i made, but i made them, and ill deal with them, not by posting all about it in my live journal so the whole world can see it. but by dealing with it by telling my friends who are important to me about what i did because everyone who knows me should know what i did respectively because it's ass what i did. im not perfect. i never was. im not making a single excuse for why i did what i did, all im saying is that i did it and it was wrong and im sorry. i want you to know that you are the most genuine person in the fucking world. one of the greatest people it has ever been and will ever have been my privelage to come across and be loved by. don't hold back any feelings or change your persona any single bit because i took it upon myself to be a flagrant mother fucking asshole to you. because i walked all over you. don't take away an angel from the world because i tainted you with something sinful. however things end up between you and i i know that we will always love eachother unconditionally. that we will always be the best of friends, but i fell in love with you for who you were, not what kind of music you liked, not what you looked like, just for who you were and the fact that we were in the same cult. :) playin. don't take that person i fell in love with away from anyone in the world except me. i have some balls posting on your shit i know. but i think you deserve to hear it weather you believe it coming from me or not. ill always love you and you are an amazing person. don't let anyone tell you or make you think otherwise. people might think i walk all over you, but you know what people make fucking mistakes, and if they want to take it upon themselves to pass judgement on a relationship that has nothing to do with them, will never have anything to do with them, and one that they know barely anything about then fuck them, regardless of my relations with them. i don't have too much else to say, and if i do i've already said it or we shall talk about it later on the phone im sure like we always do love. you could make anyone fall in love with you if you wanted to. i know this. and maybe that's why i was always such a shithead jealous boyfriend. you just have that amazing personality, and you're all quirky and it's just an extremely magnetic personality. one of the many reasons i fell in love with you a year ago. don't ever forget that. don't ever forget you're beautiful. have a wonderful day and an even more wonderful weekend. don't get too drunk sasshley xo.