dude i hate boys
ahh dude y do it do it..seriously i think i enjoy it bc i do it to myself it all the time...ok tonight started all right..me n morgan n carly n liz n carlos were gonna go to the movies....carly n liz couldnt go....yaa....just me n morgan n carlos..we went to see the boogie man pretty good movie..not that scary..neway im not gonna complain n say how shitty i felt that whole night because it isnt worth it...i just need to get over myself...actually they go good together..i finally found out what she has that i dont n thats funness..seriously when u hang out with her n everything got weird shed just bust out n itd be fun n i guess im not very fun..that n shes also nice..im not very nice ill admit im a total bitch sumtimes n i guess hes looking for sum1 really sweet..which im not so thats ok...at times it was really bad n i just wanted to sit n cry or leave but then there was sum good times it did get awkward but not too bad...when it got bad i just pretended nothing ever happened between us n i was fine again so i just need to get over it permanently lol...ugh i feel to pitiful that i still like him god dammit n today just made it worse sumtimes i hate the way things happen....neway the movie...ok it was soo not scary seriously it wasnt...ya i havnt eaten nething all day except mashed potatoes so im gettin sumthing to eat
sometimes it feels like its all an act...like actors on a stage...always doing what people expect to do..how to dress,what to say,what to do...when we're sad,pissed,etc...we hide it away..those feelings u cant let out bc that not how ur "supposed to act" n if u do express urself ur "different" n thats not how ur supposed to do..n then people wonder why u dont tell them when sumthings wrong..they wouldnt know how to handle it..sum things just rnt ment for other people to hear...but i have a question for you..who is the director hmmm?..who controles what we do n what we say n how we act?...who?
sometimes it feels like its all an act...like actors on a stage...always doing what people expect to do..how to dress,what to say,what to do...when we're sad,pissed,etc...we hide it away..those feelings u cant let out bc that not how ur "supposed to act" n if u do express urself ur "different" n thats not how ur supposed to do..n then people wonder why u dont tell them when sumthings wrong..they wouldnt know how to handle it..sum things just rnt ment for other people to hear...but i have a question for you..who is the director hmmm?..who controles what we do n what we say n how we act?...who?