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3:16am:
Untitled - Notepad
my actions stem from a deep-seated fear of: if i do A i will become B, B being the opposite of what I am now... and A being the opposite of how I live now... it's silly, because it shows how much confidence i am lacking in myself. I am, and will always be, and could never be other than... myself. Just because I do one thing doesn't mean I don't do the other thing, or that I can't understand the other thing. We as humans are not defined so easily.
That's why we are drawn to some people, because they are contradictory in that they are two things at once. Something that we have a hard time seeing ourselves as being capable of attaining, a duality, and yet a singularity that comes from that duality.
To be whole because you are two sides of one coin. How can that be so hard to attain?
Again, a problem I have. To understand yet not implement. To theorize and yet not actualize... to think but not do.
Untitled - Notepad
my actions stem from a deep-seated fear of: if i do A i will become B, B being the opposite of what I am now... and A being the opposite of how I live now... it's silly, because it shows how much confidence i am lacking in myself. I am, and will always be, and could never be other than... myself. Just because I do one thing doesn't mean I don't do the other thing, or that I can't understand the other thing. We as humans are not defined so easily.
That's why we are drawn to some people, because they are contradictory in that they are two things at once. Something that we have a hard time seeing ourselves as being capable of attaining, a duality, and yet a singularity that comes from that duality.
To be whole because you are two sides of one coin. How can that be so hard to attain?
Again, a problem I have. To understand yet not implement. To theorize and yet not actualize... to think but not do.