You Know What I Realized?
Well, at least this is my guess, I don't think my life is interesting when there's no drama. . . or maybe i just need to talk less now because there is no more ranting and venting and frustration.
I went on my second date with Carson. (I figure I'll just have a mini update on him when I post now, even though this will probably be all I talk about in this post. Please don't get bored with me!) It went very well! We have established that we are going to date exclusively. I think it's a good thing cause we both don't like other people and we both don't think anyone else will come around anytime soon, so why not be exclusive? We watched Star Wars! It's about time right? Well I liked the movie. I still don't see why there was so much hype, but I figure the hype will come between the fifth and sixth episodes. He kissed me today. I really enjoy kissing in general, but I don't think I've ever been so nervous. I don't know whether to take it as a good thing or a bad thing either. I, personally, am taking it as a good thing. I think it means that I'm liking this kid a lot and I don't want to screw it up. . .
I think part of this may be because whenever something bad happened between Devin and I or Dylan and I they sort of made me feel like it was my fault. I have that feeling that tells me if something goes wrong with Carson it'll be my fault, like there's a voice inside my head saying, "Well great job! You just blew it! AGAIN! Why'd you have to go there, Amena?"
The Rest Of The Week:
THURSDAY:
- Mads Retreat Day 1 (1:00 - 5:00), which I am missing dnd for. . . ugh. . .
FRIDAY:
- Mads Retreat Day 2 (1:00 - 5:00)
- Thespian Camping Trip Meeting/Party (6:00 - 8:00)
- Date #3 ( 8:30 - 10:00-ish)
SATURDAY:
- Trish's Birthday party(?-?)
- Shabob's Birthday Party(?-?)
Love you all!
-Me
P.S. There are two days of Mads Retreat cause we "couldn't find" a whole day to do it. Lame! So we split it into two days.
Oh! I forgot to say, I'm really, really happy Sasha's in Mads. I'm so proud of her and I like to believe that I have some part of influencing her as a young lady.
I went on my second date with Carson. (I figure I'll just have a mini update on him when I post now, even though this will probably be all I talk about in this post. Please don't get bored with me!) It went very well! We have established that we are going to date exclusively. I think it's a good thing cause we both don't like other people and we both don't think anyone else will come around anytime soon, so why not be exclusive? We watched Star Wars! It's about time right? Well I liked the movie. I still don't see why there was so much hype, but I figure the hype will come between the fifth and sixth episodes. He kissed me today. I really enjoy kissing in general, but I don't think I've ever been so nervous. I don't know whether to take it as a good thing or a bad thing either. I, personally, am taking it as a good thing. I think it means that I'm liking this kid a lot and I don't want to screw it up. . .
I think part of this may be because whenever something bad happened between Devin and I or Dylan and I they sort of made me feel like it was my fault. I have that feeling that tells me if something goes wrong with Carson it'll be my fault, like there's a voice inside my head saying, "Well great job! You just blew it! AGAIN! Why'd you have to go there, Amena?"
The Rest Of The Week:
THURSDAY:
- Mads Retreat Day 1 (1:00 - 5:00), which I am missing dnd for. . . ugh. . .
FRIDAY:
- Mads Retreat Day 2 (1:00 - 5:00)
- Thespian Camping Trip Meeting/Party (6:00 - 8:00)
- Date #3 ( 8:30 - 10:00-ish)
SATURDAY:
- Trish's Birthday party(?-?)
- Shabob's Birthday Party(?-?)
Love you all!
-Me
P.S. There are two days of Mads Retreat cause we "couldn't find" a whole day to do it. Lame! So we split it into two days.
Oh! I forgot to say, I'm really, really happy Sasha's in Mads. I'm so proud of her and I like to believe that I have some part of influencing her as a young lady.