I Think This Will Be A Sufficient Update
It's been way too damn long since I've updated!
Well Devin is completely over. I would actually like it if he moved away or something. . . no. . I wouldn't but it's just nice not being involved with him anymore. He was a gigantic ball of muck-up-your-brain-play-with-your-emotions-fuck-up-any-type-of-relationship-and-cause-as-much-stress-as-possible..
Hippie camping came at the best time possible. I was feeling low every day, was just not in a good place mentally and it showed physically. I left all that behind when I went Hippie Camping. Emma I have to just say, when I got there the only thing I could possibly stress about was getting points and that didn't even phase me. (Damn. I just lost the game.) I came back from Camping and I swear My whole outlook on life is just better. Meeting people, haha and Joe, was about the most amazing thing that could have happened. I also think part of it was me starting to read Eat Pray Love while camping. The beginning was hard to get through but now i find myself wanting to read more.
Last night I saw Megan and Petro. I haven't seen them in forever and it was wonderful! I realized as I was getting naked, for skinny dipping, that I will always be completely comfortable in front of that Chicago tour group. I LOVE YOU ALL! and I miss you guys so much! and although I'm on the verge of tears, I'm so grateful to have/have had you guys in my life! Sometimes I just think about things and I just see how things fell apart. We were so close and now we barely talk to each other. I think back and I remember how it hurt so bad to be completely conscious and aware of how the tight group was drifting and seeing the cracks form so quickly in this solid slate. Sometimes I wish I would have tried as hard as Dylan did to keep us together. But I know we're all growing up. And I know we all went our separate ways. And I know that we'll always be friends. And I also know that all of us will miss it. Katri I know you don't read this, but that video you made about us. The White Houses Video was kind of our end and it came at the right time.
That was something I think I needed to say. It's a fact that I've needed to face for a while now. It took a lot for me to write those words but even though I am crying, I'm glad. I'm glad that I had that time with you guys and I'm glad that you will always be part of my life. I love you all!
Well, with that being said, today I have a lunch date with Cameron Shim and an actual date with a boy named Carson. I'm a little scared because it's really really a first date. I haven't been on one of those. Like ever. Like ever ever. So I'm nervous, but he's really cool so I'm not worried. Just a little nervous that I won't be interesting enough. But whatever, I'll just get nervous and awkward and talk like a maniac. It's all good!
So to sum things up, I'm happy. It's not ecstatic or jolly, I'm just plain happy and it's the most wonderful feeling! I'm over Devin. (THANK YOU GOD!) I love my friends and miss them to death. I have a date with a fun boy with no strings attached. And I'm happy. I'm really happy! I'M HAPPY! I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Go Listen to my myspace song. That's how I'm feeling right now!
Well Devin is completely over. I would actually like it if he moved away or something. . . no. . I wouldn't but it's just nice not being involved with him anymore. He was a gigantic ball of muck-up-your-brain-play-with-your-emotions-fuck-up-any-type-of-relationship-and-cause-as-much-stress-as-possible..
Hippie camping came at the best time possible. I was feeling low every day, was just not in a good place mentally and it showed physically. I left all that behind when I went Hippie Camping. Emma I have to just say, when I got there the only thing I could possibly stress about was getting points and that didn't even phase me. (Damn. I just lost the game.) I came back from Camping and I swear My whole outlook on life is just better. Meeting people, haha and Joe, was about the most amazing thing that could have happened. I also think part of it was me starting to read Eat Pray Love while camping. The beginning was hard to get through but now i find myself wanting to read more.
Last night I saw Megan and Petro. I haven't seen them in forever and it was wonderful! I realized as I was getting naked, for skinny dipping, that I will always be completely comfortable in front of that Chicago tour group. I LOVE YOU ALL! and I miss you guys so much! and although I'm on the verge of tears, I'm so grateful to have/have had you guys in my life! Sometimes I just think about things and I just see how things fell apart. We were so close and now we barely talk to each other. I think back and I remember how it hurt so bad to be completely conscious and aware of how the tight group was drifting and seeing the cracks form so quickly in this solid slate. Sometimes I wish I would have tried as hard as Dylan did to keep us together. But I know we're all growing up. And I know we all went our separate ways. And I know that we'll always be friends. And I also know that all of us will miss it. Katri I know you don't read this, but that video you made about us. The White Houses Video was kind of our end and it came at the right time.
That was something I think I needed to say. It's a fact that I've needed to face for a while now. It took a lot for me to write those words but even though I am crying, I'm glad. I'm glad that I had that time with you guys and I'm glad that you will always be part of my life. I love you all!
Well, with that being said, today I have a lunch date with Cameron Shim and an actual date with a boy named Carson. I'm a little scared because it's really really a first date. I haven't been on one of those. Like ever. Like ever ever. So I'm nervous, but he's really cool so I'm not worried. Just a little nervous that I won't be interesting enough. But whatever, I'll just get nervous and awkward and talk like a maniac. It's all good!
So to sum things up, I'm happy. It's not ecstatic or jolly, I'm just plain happy and it's the most wonderful feeling! I'm over Devin. (THANK YOU GOD!) I love my friends and miss them to death. I have a date with a fun boy with no strings attached. And I'm happy. I'm really happy! I'M HAPPY! I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Go Listen to my myspace song. That's how I'm feeling right now!