The most random expression of the all is... what?

[transientmoment]

So it has been, sometime, I don't care to consider exactly how much, since last I posted; and I am sitting here, at work, in my cubicle that isn't even fully mine, and I have realized, I am depressed. Not in any grand scheme sort of way, but in the way one gets depressed after doing nothing for some time and having no forward momentum in ones life ( though it is not necessarily linked to total lack of momentum, but perhaps a direction that seems stunted, an action that feels too little, too late ). Basically I had a bad, very boring and lonely weekend. Probably it was worse just because of the juxtaposition between this weekend (spent alone, doing absolutely fucking nothing) and the weekends of the last month-and-a-half or so, when if Jen wasn't in town that weekend, I would inevitably go out of town to see her. School is so slow as well, and the immediate prospects of it all are very disheartening, I suppose however that the best way to go about it, is to ignore all of the crap and just push through this first year, and not try to invest great emotional stock in it all. Again, simple catharsis. Sponge exponging. Needed someone who couldn't respond to talk to you... guess that means me.
I'm really not as sad and depressed as all these make me out to be, that's the only time I find myself too-casually surfing the internet though, when I am happy, I am either doing something, or I can always find some little something to entertain...

whatev.