Apparently there's nothing I can do...

[justtristan]

 Hey everyone. I hope I'm posting this in the right area. I'm 20 years old. I'm still semi-in the closet about my gender identity. The world sees me as a woman. But that's not what I'm supposed to be. When I was 8 years old, I told some kids in my class that I was supposed to be a boy. Somehow it managed to work it's way to the principle and then

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[admiralzeka]

I'd say just go for it and be yourself. Yeah I know the details get in the way, but I think even committing yourself to it in your own mind will help alot. Just do what you can now with the resources you have available, and always remember that the day will come when you can get to the rest. As far as your mother, I've very familiar with that kind of tactic. You can pretty much either play along to see if she lets up on it, or fight it every single time she does it. Now, the latter approach may mean quite alot of correcting her you'll have to make (depending on what kind of person she is) but to me that is preferable to letting others tell you how to live, and even worse trying to tell you who you are. As far as living as a guy, just do what feels right for you. When I told my mother about it (mtf in my case) I got loads of "you have to do/like/dress like xxx if you're really a girl". But that's a load of bull. Do what feels right for you, and if you have to try different things and get different perspectives to find out what that is then do it.

[justtristan]

Yeah. The committing does feel good. For the first time I am actually feeling good about myself and appearance. When she gets home from work today, she wont be happy... She'll probably have something to say... But the feeling I have right now is going to be worth it. Thank you. You helped a lot.