Trans Asexuals on Hormones

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I am a young trans guy who is in and out of the asexual community. I started my testosterone shots about a week and a half ago *hands out celebratory cookies* and I've been wondering about some of the effects

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I don't know how much help I can be, as I have never really identified as asexual. My sexuality has always been rather complicated and I don't really understand it myself; I normally ID (if I feel I have to) as a bisexual man, but the truth is that a lot of the time I don't really feel a pysical attraction to anyone at all- just an emotional one. This has been going on since puberty, and while I do have sex I am pretty sure that I could happily live without it altogether. To this end, I go through long periods of asexuality, and have had a couple of asexual relationships. I have no idea why I keep changing back and forth, and to be honest, I'm not even sure if I *am* bisexual, or if I am an asexual romantic with a tendancy to give in to social pressure. But that is probubly a whole seperate issue. ^__-

Anyway, I have found that taking T (I have been on it for 7-8months now) has boosted my sex drive dramatically, but not necessarily my interest in sex with other people. Feeling horny is something I can happily live with without having to go and find someone to share it with. ^__- One thing I have noticed since I started on T is that I look at other people a lot more in a sexual way, even if I don't realise I am doing it, and I certainly think about it a lot more. I've also noticed that when I am interested in others, I have had a shift in my general sexual tastes when it comes to partners. Pre-T, I was more interested in androgynous looking people, but since starting on it I have become much more interested in people who are very masculine. That has been quite a strange thing for me, and it has started to affect my romantic involvements too, as well as just the sexual ones. I can't say though weather similar things happen to other people, and I suspect that they don't (although I base that entirely on the fact that no-one else has ever mentioned such a thing to me.)

One thing that has not changed, though, is that when I am dissinterested in sex with other people, having a higher sex drive does not affect that at all. If anything, being constantly horny (which is pretty much how I am living at the moment) makes me less interested in actually having sex. Which is something that I honestly can't explain, so I won't even try. XD

(Sorry this reply is long and a bit stilted- I don't talk about these things much.)