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hi folks. I'm curious...how do you pick names?
a friend of mine pointed out to me that if you hyphenate your last name, you get to use either one when signing things...I think I want to include my mother's name. that brings up the oppurtunity to get rid of my awful middle name, though, and it occurs to me that I could get a new first name altogether if I felt like it. chances are the people important to me will continue to call me Nathan, at least until I'm done with college and move out of state...but the idea of having a gender-neutral name is rather intriguing. I've always been flattered when people call me ma'am by "mistake", or can't tell over the phone or something...so having it to where people couldn't tell just from looking at me on paper would be awesome...
I've not consistently felt any kind of strong urge to express myself as a woman and only a woman, but I have almost always resented how people try to force me to be a man. I'd really rather just be me and have people be okay with it not fitting either stereotype...but I'm really rather quiet and self conscious, so it feels like it's more stress than it's worth to deviate publically. I've got insecurity to spare in jeans and a hoodie...finding a vegetarian boyfriend is hard enough without me adding "awkward semi-cross dresser" to my list of things-to-be-loved-by-somebody. I also have no idea how to find somebody who'd be interested in me outside of the "gay" scene...which I don't really feel at home in. not that I've had any luck in that department anyway...arkansas sucks.
I really hate to be ostentatious and I'm kind of a hippie, so figuring out ways to express femininity that are in keeping with my fairly relaxed, casual-to-earthy style is kind of hard for me. it'd help if I didn't care so damn much about what everybody else thinks. have any of you seen instances of people pulling off a fairly good androgynous/queer/genderfuck sort of thing without it being all emo-kid trendy? I don't do tight pants and eyeliner...in a perfect world I'd be wandering around in peasant skirts wearing bangles, but at this point I'm still pretty much t-shirt and jeans because I have no idea what to do...just a vague but firm sense that I want to do something. maybe making my own clothes would work? meh. anybody feel me?
I know I'm not mtf...more like mt_ or mtx or something. not sure how to get there, though. hope this is still relevent to a trans community. thanks everybody =)
a friend of mine pointed out to me that if you hyphenate your last name, you get to use either one when signing things...I think I want to include my mother's name. that brings up the oppurtunity to get rid of my awful middle name, though, and it occurs to me that I could get a new first name altogether if I felt like it. chances are the people important to me will continue to call me Nathan, at least until I'm done with college and move out of state...but the idea of having a gender-neutral name is rather intriguing. I've always been flattered when people call me ma'am by "mistake", or can't tell over the phone or something...so having it to where people couldn't tell just from looking at me on paper would be awesome...
I've not consistently felt any kind of strong urge to express myself as a woman and only a woman, but I have almost always resented how people try to force me to be a man. I'd really rather just be me and have people be okay with it not fitting either stereotype...but I'm really rather quiet and self conscious, so it feels like it's more stress than it's worth to deviate publically. I've got insecurity to spare in jeans and a hoodie...finding a vegetarian boyfriend is hard enough without me adding "awkward semi-cross dresser" to my list of things-to-be-loved-by-somebody. I also have no idea how to find somebody who'd be interested in me outside of the "gay" scene...which I don't really feel at home in. not that I've had any luck in that department anyway...arkansas sucks.
I really hate to be ostentatious and I'm kind of a hippie, so figuring out ways to express femininity that are in keeping with my fairly relaxed, casual-to-earthy style is kind of hard for me. it'd help if I didn't care so damn much about what everybody else thinks. have any of you seen instances of people pulling off a fairly good androgynous/queer/genderfuck sort of thing without it being all emo-kid trendy? I don't do tight pants and eyeliner...in a perfect world I'd be wandering around in peasant skirts wearing bangles, but at this point I'm still pretty much t-shirt and jeans because I have no idea what to do...just a vague but firm sense that I want to do something. maybe making my own clothes would work? meh. anybody feel me?
I know I'm not mtf...more like mt_ or mtx or something. not sure how to get there, though. hope this is still relevent to a trans community. thanks everybody =)