Makeover! And, pumping you for more information.
I dressed up for my mom today, who has never seen me dressed up before, and it turned out to be a lot of fun. And a pretty big weight was taken off of my shoulders, even though she is already completely accepting of me. She took a few pictures of me, and it got me to looking at myself much more deeply. Because I'm still so new to this, I really don't have much of a sense of style, or really much of a feminine "persona" to myself (aside from my personality, which I think is actually more "effeminate" than womanly). You guys have been so nice, I thought I would post a few of them. I really would like to know what you think, and any tips, advice, what have you, you could maybe give me, I would really, really appreciate! I'm about as much of a girl as I can really muster right now, with my own unkeen eyes.
My hair was pulled up in a clip for these pictures. When it's down, it's slightly below my shoulders. And my eyebrows have actually grown back recently, and I haven't re-tweezed them. They are usually thinner, with more of an arch.
Also, I had a fairly serious question to ask you all. I read that, in order to start HRT, you have to pass a fairly rigorous psychological screening. And I doubt I would. Without really going into it, I have been taking some form of anti-depressant, mood stabilizer, and anti-psychotic ever since I was a child. I even still sporadically have mild delusional, psychotic attacks, but they get rarer as I get older. I also heard (it's just conjecture, it may not be true, but I'm still not very knowledgeable) that one of the "typical" categories that a psychological screen test could put you in can basically be a mentally insane person who isn't actually dysphoric, but rather, it only appears that way because his or her psychosis "imitates" feelings of gender identity issues. That, in relation to my mental problems, is complete bullshit (I don't feel like a psychopath with some kind of Munchausen's) but I have a feeling I would be put in that category, considering my history. I have a suspicion that my issues may not be taken all that seriously. This has brought me to thinking of my latest psychiatrist appointment, coming up at the end of July. No one seems to take me seriously, even the doctors, because they just think I'm delusional. And sometimes I can be, but not in the way that everyone thinks. It's hard to explain. I've just been wondering this, and I was hoping you all could maybe shed some light on it for me. Along with advising me on how I can be more of a woman!!
My hair was pulled up in a clip for these pictures. When it's down, it's slightly below my shoulders. And my eyebrows have actually grown back recently, and I haven't re-tweezed them. They are usually thinner, with more of an arch.
Also, I had a fairly serious question to ask you all. I read that, in order to start HRT, you have to pass a fairly rigorous psychological screening. And I doubt I would. Without really going into it, I have been taking some form of anti-depressant, mood stabilizer, and anti-psychotic ever since I was a child. I even still sporadically have mild delusional, psychotic attacks, but they get rarer as I get older. I also heard (it's just conjecture, it may not be true, but I'm still not very knowledgeable) that one of the "typical" categories that a psychological screen test could put you in can basically be a mentally insane person who isn't actually dysphoric, but rather, it only appears that way because his or her psychosis "imitates" feelings of gender identity issues. That, in relation to my mental problems, is complete bullshit (I don't feel like a psychopath with some kind of Munchausen's) but I have a feeling I would be put in that category, considering my history. I have a suspicion that my issues may not be taken all that seriously. This has brought me to thinking of my latest psychiatrist appointment, coming up at the end of July. No one seems to take me seriously, even the doctors, because they just think I'm delusional. And sometimes I can be, but not in the way that everyone thinks. It's hard to explain. I've just been wondering this, and I was hoping you all could maybe shed some light on it for me. Along with advising me on how I can be more of a woman!!