This is crossposted to my LJ as well soory to those that see it more then once
1. In collage (about 1988 - 89 true time uncertain)started secretly keeping a hiden stash of fem clothing and makeup, used for self gratification but felt odly comfertable.
2. After moveing away from home for second time (to the bay area aprox 1995?) started wearinf panties about 50% of the time, though always to sleep in (again things felt right, and they were so much more comfertable then 'Mens" underware. towards the end of my time in the bay area I was wearing them about 80%.
3. Moved away from California to be with the wolfy(October 2000), strarted wearing my panties 98 to 100% of the time, though there were a dew pairs of Male unders kept for doctors apointments and the like. Also at this time started useing a female bady wash full time, so much nicer then mens body wash.
4. Arround 2003 come to a personal realization that i have a very fem side to my personality, more then half my body language isnt as it should be for my body.
5. July 22 2004, this LJ started so I can express my female side, though it goes for some time between my vixen posts.
6. Slowly after 2004 I come out more and more, slowly oh so slowly I notice more and more of my self emerging occasionl minor experiments in apperance nothing much till early this year.
7. (This Year - 2007) While out on the road as a comercial driver, I visit two someones special, upon realizeing I forgot my sweats in the truck I was loned some Hanes her way lounge pants to sleep the night in, ohhhh were they so much better to sleep in so much better, small bolt hits brain.
8. While in Az for some time off visiting another friend, I buy my first loungepants of my own, and a bottle of nair to de-fluff the legs, i get some minor burns from the nair but the de-fluffed legs felt wonderfull.
9. durring the the summer (2007) i start slowly quireing some fem clothing, switch to shaveing my legs (oh murrrrrrrrrrrr, love my vanilla leg shaveing gel) and slowly add shaveing what little i have in bodyhair on my chest and underarm areas.
10. durring september I switch from useing mens deoderant to useing Secret deodernt and body spray (Vanilla Chi scent - MURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR) it does a better job then the mens stuff ever did, and im not getting strange reaction rashes from it either.
11. In October, major lightnig bolt hits my brain as I have been reading so much about Transgenderd persons and the typical personality they display, the more I read the more I see discriptions of myself, its very wierd at first to see almost perfect descriptions of my behavors and reactions, but then realization sets in, I am in the wrog body.
12. at MFF, Two wonderfull ladies tresat me to a acrillic nail job, i was so nervous as I was dressed all male, and picked a pinky-purple polish to top off the job, the nail tech, never even blinked at the job, though he kept haveing to tell me to relax and enjoy it.
13. Saturday night at MFF, with much love and support I get the courage to go to the fursuit dance dressed en-fem, and again the lightnig bolt hits my brain as it felt right. The wolfy even saw me, and complimented me on my apperance (gods i dont know what i would have done if he had said something else)
14. Once home from MFF, rather then hideing my fem clothing ive hung them in my closet where they belong, but plan on persuing the big Transition. though i still have my accrilyic nails they are currently looking somewhat natural in coloration.
And thats all for now. If you have read this far, wow, im not that interesting of a Mentaly messed up Vixen