the moment i wake up
no one is home and all i think about is the weight of the day. I've got so much work and too many phone calls to make. I have a funeral to go to tonight and friends that are all in pain. My scale shows i gained 6 lbs since friday. I wonder how on earth? I have no idea. Water weight, sure a little but haven't seen a number this high in ages, certainly before any of this even developed. Sometimes I don't purge, to punish myself. That needs to stop, now.
So, I look at the clock. At 7:20 I told myself i'd eat until 8, purge, shower and head to work... It's 10 after 8 now. I'm not done... yet, i'm still here to write.
I hardly slept at all last night. My hands are shaking too much to type
So, I look at the clock. At 7:20 I told myself i'd eat until 8, purge, shower and head to work... It's 10 after 8 now. I'm not done... yet, i'm still here to write.
I hardly slept at all last night. My hands are shaking too much to type