it is only the question, where the answer lies
i wonder what is more important, having the strength to break the
chains of being human or accepting the fact that they cannot be broken.
there are times when it's a little hard to find the good in everything.
sometimes i like to take a little inventory about the things that are
worrying me or things that i just don't feel right about for my life,
up until that exact moment. i wonder how many other people do
that....i bet if they did, the majority of people wouldn't have selfish
needs on their mind. this is certainly a startling revelation to
the average person. i can't figure out at what point it is that
our intentions, and our actions get crossed up and so many people
become upset. i think people genuinely don't want for that to
happen, maybe it's a profound inability to plan, or see too far into
the future.
i guess i have grown weary of faces, and am looking only for someone to be genuine...everyone maybe? are there truly knowledgeable observers? or is everyone drowning in themselves. i want a bystander to tell me what they see, someone who doesn't know me, but knows me better than those that do. i really don't think i have all these questions.....
i miss some of my old friends, i think i may go on a kick where i start finding people from my past. i think the only reason i do that is because i need some boost in ego, or i'd rather think confidence, and i have to find out if my effect on these people from long ago is still tangible. or if not, i'd at least like for them to say that they remembered me and pretend that i mattered to them. maybe instead i'll just figure out some way to get the actual truth from them and not have another tired face telling me something i want to hear.
there is one question i'd like for everyone to be able to ask themselves and everyone around them. i think most people won't know what i'm talking about, and to be honest at this point i'm rambling and i just happen to be at this page to be writing this. have you been here before? have you had this conversation before, made this face, heard it somewhere else, picked up that thought from someone else, has someone already had this emotion in this exact circumstance and played out the exact scenario you will, have you touched that person there already? have you already told someone your fears, and this person was just next in line, are you even afraid at all, is everything you do recycled, can you not treat people as if they are originial in spite of the countless eternities that they have done all this before? that they! have done all this before. if so, then why bother?
i guess i have grown weary of faces, and am looking only for someone to be genuine...everyone maybe? are there truly knowledgeable observers? or is everyone drowning in themselves. i want a bystander to tell me what they see, someone who doesn't know me, but knows me better than those that do. i really don't think i have all these questions.....
i miss some of my old friends, i think i may go on a kick where i start finding people from my past. i think the only reason i do that is because i need some boost in ego, or i'd rather think confidence, and i have to find out if my effect on these people from long ago is still tangible. or if not, i'd at least like for them to say that they remembered me and pretend that i mattered to them. maybe instead i'll just figure out some way to get the actual truth from them and not have another tired face telling me something i want to hear.
there is one question i'd like for everyone to be able to ask themselves and everyone around them. i think most people won't know what i'm talking about, and to be honest at this point i'm rambling and i just happen to be at this page to be writing this. have you been here before? have you had this conversation before, made this face, heard it somewhere else, picked up that thought from someone else, has someone already had this emotion in this exact circumstance and played out the exact scenario you will, have you touched that person there already? have you already told someone your fears, and this person was just next in line, are you even afraid at all, is everything you do recycled, can you not treat people as if they are originial in spite of the countless eternities that they have done all this before? that they! have done all this before. if so, then why bother?