Connectionism...
I am feeling it at present. With people, with some emphasis on specific individuals, with myself and the universe.
It's quite grounding and makes me smile, and feel peaceful. My average mood measure is presently peacefully joyful.
I am having moments where I am sad, moments where I am hungry and wishing for more time, an underground tunnel of zoomyness etc...
But they're not fundamentally incompatible with the joy I'm experiencing... which is interesting - and lovely. I'm grateful for it.
My beloved kae_dash and aescapulius are working through someone important returning to aescapulius's world, which is difficult and is making them work hard - but they're so committed to the love that it's also beautiful and I've got complete confidence in them... plus they know they have all the love and support they need from me, that I'm 100% there for them.
e_dan is moving very soon, and while there's nothing to lose here... there is change. I'll miss the physicality of holding hands and other little touches like the feeling of his breath against my neck... but I have so much planned for the year that I want to learn and experience, and there's so much for him to get out of the move that I'm utterly committed to the possibilities surrounding why this is a good thing for me, for him, for us and enjoying that.
In short... I'm enjoying the love and all the things that I get to do and see and feel and experience. There's no bad or lack, there's nothing wrong, nothing missing... just some changes and good ones at that.
That said, I have marked a certain week in March for many hugs ;)
2009 is beginning wonderfully and this is just the beginning of it. Right now though, I don't have time to tell you more :)
It's quite grounding and makes me smile, and feel peaceful. My average mood measure is presently peacefully joyful.
I am having moments where I am sad, moments where I am hungry and wishing for more time, an underground tunnel of zoomyness etc...
But they're not fundamentally incompatible with the joy I'm experiencing... which is interesting - and lovely. I'm grateful for it.
My beloved kae_dash and aescapulius are working through someone important returning to aescapulius's world, which is difficult and is making them work hard - but they're so committed to the love that it's also beautiful and I've got complete confidence in them... plus they know they have all the love and support they need from me, that I'm 100% there for them.
e_dan is moving very soon, and while there's nothing to lose here... there is change. I'll miss the physicality of holding hands and other little touches like the feeling of his breath against my neck... but I have so much planned for the year that I want to learn and experience, and there's so much for him to get out of the move that I'm utterly committed to the possibilities surrounding why this is a good thing for me, for him, for us and enjoying that.
In short... I'm enjoying the love and all the things that I get to do and see and feel and experience. There's no bad or lack, there's nothing wrong, nothing missing... just some changes and good ones at that.
That said, I have marked a certain week in March for many hugs ;)
2009 is beginning wonderfully and this is just the beginning of it. Right now though, I don't have time to tell you more :)