basket case
last night after work a friend of mine came over because he was having uber trouble dealing with the fact that he is gay. we will call him mr. e (get it? mystery? oh dear, moving on...) so mr. e is 27 and has not come out to his family yet. only friends. he was having such a hard time with the fact that he did not think his parents would support his decision (damn this closed minded bible belt) and this was caused great distress in his everyday lifestyle. he hit a major depression about a month or so ago and attempted suicide. this, being one of my closest friends, has greatly upset me and has bothered me quite a bit.
last night we made a fantastic break through and he called his parents. nevermind the fact that it was 4 in the morning. and they were completely supportive! (my guess is that they probably already knew). i am soooo happy for him that he gets to have this tremendous weight lifted off his shoulders and truly be happy. we became even closer and i know we will be friends for life. he said he felt a connection with me that he has never felt with anyone else. that i can empathize with him and understand him even though i am not in his shoes. that meant so much to me. i'm glad he is in my life. he is amazing and deserves to be happy.
this situation, however, was not the best of time for me. not that is matters because i will gladly retake this class if it means making that great of an impact in someone's life. but i have a test in the morning that i didn't get to study for last night because he didn't leave till about 8 in the morning. then i had class and a double at work today. now i'm starting to freak out because this is my hardest exam of the semester. oh dear. i am worried, but it is also a trade off that i will and would take again anyday. so if i fail the test (meaning the class) i don't think i will be too upset because i believe that if i never had a reason before, then at least i had a purpose for being on this earth last night. to help my friend. and i am ok with that.
last night we made a fantastic break through and he called his parents. nevermind the fact that it was 4 in the morning. and they were completely supportive! (my guess is that they probably already knew). i am soooo happy for him that he gets to have this tremendous weight lifted off his shoulders and truly be happy. we became even closer and i know we will be friends for life. he said he felt a connection with me that he has never felt with anyone else. that i can empathize with him and understand him even though i am not in his shoes. that meant so much to me. i'm glad he is in my life. he is amazing and deserves to be happy.
this situation, however, was not the best of time for me. not that is matters because i will gladly retake this class if it means making that great of an impact in someone's life. but i have a test in the morning that i didn't get to study for last night because he didn't leave till about 8 in the morning. then i had class and a double at work today. now i'm starting to freak out because this is my hardest exam of the semester. oh dear. i am worried, but it is also a trade off that i will and would take again anyday. so if i fail the test (meaning the class) i don't think i will be too upset because i believe that if i never had a reason before, then at least i had a purpose for being on this earth last night. to help my friend. and i am ok with that.