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i haven't cried yet. haven't shed a single tear. felt like it a million times. held on strong.
but i found a shirt he left behind. it smelled like comfort. hugged it. wondered if i left anything for him to hold.
i even remember the day he wore it. i can't remember anything anymore but i remember that. i dream of the day he will wear it again.
i am so angry. i hate having this much negativity in my heart. for someone i hold so dear. i hate him for hurting me in the same exact way i knew he would. from day one. i knew. he was the one. the one to break not only my heart, but break me.
so here i am. broken. alone. hurt.
trying unsuccessfully to yet once again fight back the tears that are blurring my vision.
so here i am. so desperately wanting those days back where everything made sense. knowing my next step. not feeling like a lost soul wandering around searching for her non existent mate.
so here i am. tired of holding back. can't fight anymore. letting myself fall along with the tears...
but i found a shirt he left behind. it smelled like comfort. hugged it. wondered if i left anything for him to hold.
i even remember the day he wore it. i can't remember anything anymore but i remember that. i dream of the day he will wear it again.
i am so angry. i hate having this much negativity in my heart. for someone i hold so dear. i hate him for hurting me in the same exact way i knew he would. from day one. i knew. he was the one. the one to break not only my heart, but break me.
so here i am. broken. alone. hurt.
trying unsuccessfully to yet once again fight back the tears that are blurring my vision.
so here i am. so desperately wanting those days back where everything made sense. knowing my next step. not feeling like a lost soul wandering around searching for her non existent mate.
so here i am. tired of holding back. can't fight anymore. letting myself fall along with the tears...