Could I?
I'm so tired. I guess that's what I get for having a baby. I love Ezra, I really do, but sometime I wonder if I would've been better off not having him in the first place. Post-partum is a bitch I might add. I went up to Fergus Falls this past weekend and saw Daniel...Fell head over heels in love. I don't know what to do about it. I know it's okay for me to have these feelings, I am single now after all. There has been this unexplainible connection between Dan and I since the moment we talked, almost a year ago., that's got to mean something right? Yeah thought so. The weekend was unforgetable in many many ways and when I left, I was beyond upset, which got me wondering, could I move up there? I know it's far and I'd be away from almost everyone that I love, but wouldn't it be worth it? I know that you should never move anywhere for a guy, but he's no ordinary guy and then there's Brandi, one of the dearest people to me. I miss her terribly. Dallas and I already have this arrangment where he gets Ezra on the weekends and sees him everyday after work. So, moving up there wouldn't hurt the father/son bonding, the driving would suck, but it would all work itself out. God, i can't believe I'm saying this about the guy up there. I never though I'd feel this way and then some about a guy ever again. Even I surprise myself. He says he is in love with me as well, which helps, heh. Am I insane? Dan is a great guy...wow. Bleh, I don't know...help...