I've seen you in my dreams
I have a "girl of my dreams"... literally. I woke up this morning fully remembering the content of my dream the night before and the feelings I had during it were still with me. I had a huge smile on my face and this genuine joy in my heart. It felt so real, but it was all a dream.
Whoever she is, whether there is a 'real-life' version of her or not, she is amazing. There are things I know about her just from spending one night with her (although my dream actually spanned a few days), like the fact that her heart is pure and her external beauty doesn't hold a candle to what's inside - and trust me, she was a looker. Her eyes, her greyish blue eyes would look at me with such suspicion at first, that I knew she had been hurt many times before. I could tell there's a wall that she erects whenever she meets someone new, not trusting their motives or intentions, but I smiled at her and she saw right through me. The wall melted away and she let herself be vulnerable to me, trusting me so deeply. I can still feel her in my arms, the warmth of holding her there and knowing that this one wouldn't turn around and hurt me. That she had the same fears, the same painful past, the same bruised heart. We met not wanting or expecting anything, and getting everything.
We weren't going to be reckless with each other's heart.
I felt safe, loved, wanted, trusted, thought of, needed... and when I woke up I added hope and faith to that list. For the first time in 5 months, I believe that I can love again, because I did last night. For the first time in 5 months, I hope to get the chance to love again and make someone really happy.
I love you dream girl and I WILL find you.
EDIT: A day later and I can't stop thinking about her and every time I do, my heart skips a beat. She feels like a "Lisa" or a "Lauren" to me.
Whoever she is, whether there is a 'real-life' version of her or not, she is amazing. There are things I know about her just from spending one night with her (although my dream actually spanned a few days), like the fact that her heart is pure and her external beauty doesn't hold a candle to what's inside - and trust me, she was a looker. Her eyes, her greyish blue eyes would look at me with such suspicion at first, that I knew she had been hurt many times before. I could tell there's a wall that she erects whenever she meets someone new, not trusting their motives or intentions, but I smiled at her and she saw right through me. The wall melted away and she let herself be vulnerable to me, trusting me so deeply. I can still feel her in my arms, the warmth of holding her there and knowing that this one wouldn't turn around and hurt me. That she had the same fears, the same painful past, the same bruised heart. We met not wanting or expecting anything, and getting everything.
We weren't going to be reckless with each other's heart.
I felt safe, loved, wanted, trusted, thought of, needed... and when I woke up I added hope and faith to that list. For the first time in 5 months, I believe that I can love again, because I did last night. For the first time in 5 months, I hope to get the chance to love again and make someone really happy.
I love you dream girl and I WILL find you.
EDIT: A day later and I can't stop thinking about her and every time I do, my heart skips a beat. She feels like a "Lisa" or a "Lauren" to me.