"How many transgenders have to die before you get involved?"
That was on a sign at Los Angeles' TDOR march and rally, so I thought I'd share. I saw pictures of it on LA's indymedia.
TDOR's been on my mind. It's been on my mind for a lot longer than just since Monday. I don't know what I'm feeling, I'm generally numb to begin with. Someone asked me by email a gender-related personal question that I can't remember right now, but I remember answering it by saying I feel like a gender blur, and not by choice. I feel like I shift around based on what someone calls me over the phone or by email (my birth name trips people up) or how they approach me in person. I don't like it because it's not how I want to be and seen, not because gender ambiguity makes me uncomfortable. I feel like my gender's been killed, so I guess I've been doing my own little mourning, as selfish and self-absorbed as that feels. Or maybe it's just being kept hostage and it feels like death.
On another front, the situation in Lebanon is getting increasingly unstable. The news networks are talking about being on the brink of civil war since Gemayel's assassination. I'm angry at the hurt and pain that the Lebanese people are experiencing because of what Israel decided to unleash, with full approval of the US, upon that beautiful, noble, hard-working nation. I love my country and I want to see it heal soon.
TDOR's been on my mind. It's been on my mind for a lot longer than just since Monday. I don't know what I'm feeling, I'm generally numb to begin with. Someone asked me by email a gender-related personal question that I can't remember right now, but I remember answering it by saying I feel like a gender blur, and not by choice. I feel like I shift around based on what someone calls me over the phone or by email (my birth name trips people up) or how they approach me in person. I don't like it because it's not how I want to be and seen, not because gender ambiguity makes me uncomfortable. I feel like my gender's been killed, so I guess I've been doing my own little mourning, as selfish and self-absorbed as that feels. Or maybe it's just being kept hostage and it feels like death.
On another front, the situation in Lebanon is getting increasingly unstable. The news networks are talking about being on the brink of civil war since Gemayel's assassination. I'm angry at the hurt and pain that the Lebanese people are experiencing because of what Israel decided to unleash, with full approval of the US, upon that beautiful, noble, hard-working nation. I love my country and I want to see it heal soon.