Help!
Ok so its 3:15 in the morning... I think I am suffering from Insomnia. I can't seem to get to bed till like oh I don't know 4 or 5 am in the morning. Maybe taking my medicine earlier will help I don't know. I am taking my medication now if you care to know. A friend of mine from AU is online he moved back to TX he has an interesting sense of humor. I finally did dishes in my apartment after not doing them for like um I think a month possibly. So I am happy about that.
So I have some serious job hunting to do this week I think I found like 15 jobs I want to apply for. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I will say one thing being FTM is hell for me right now since I am living in two worlds and like I just feel soooo out of place it ain't cool. Ugh, I just don't know what to do. Sometimes I don't know how to act because my life legally is still my female life. It is a really tough position to be in for me. I see my therapist this week, hopefully I can discuss this with her. I seriously want to move on in my life and transition. I want to begin my life and I want to be on my own. I don't want to be dependent anymore. I want to live my life the way I want to.
So I have some serious job hunting to do this week I think I found like 15 jobs I want to apply for. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I will say one thing being FTM is hell for me right now since I am living in two worlds and like I just feel soooo out of place it ain't cool. Ugh, I just don't know what to do. Sometimes I don't know how to act because my life legally is still my female life. It is a really tough position to be in for me. I see my therapist this week, hopefully I can discuss this with her. I seriously want to move on in my life and transition. I want to begin my life and I want to be on my own. I don't want to be dependent anymore. I want to live my life the way I want to.