there's nothing quite like laughing until you almost wet yourself
About an hour ago, I guess, I decided that we (Kara and I) should go out for a walk. I really was looking forward to doing this because the other day, I went outside for a walk in an attempt to get lost. Not necessarily "lost", but I wanted to be in a semi-unfamiliar place because I live in a kind of cul-de-sac and it's incredibly boring and far too well-lit for my liking (we have like, highway streetlights because we live near a highway [thankfully not close enough that it's obnoxious]). It didn't work very well though and is something that I would rather do with someone else (getting lost with someone else doesn't really make sense but I don't like being alone), so going out with her was fun.
It's just really refreshing and relaxing (in an active way) and liberating to get outside and breathe in the cold air. Also be able to actually talk to someone and laugh and be jovial and such. I like winter, it is the best season ever. I really like going outside and walking around and being cold, and you don't really get all of those together when it is any season except winter. You also don't get that when you don't have anyone around that much to do those sort of things with. Because it's not really very fun to talk to yourself, especially when you're walking around outside and there are people.
That's why I think I would really like living in places like Canada or Iceland with Kaylen because they are so completely unfamiliar and the climate is almost ideal year-round and you know, I can walk around with someone.
But it's actually nice to go out with someone who isn't him. ...Not that I've ever been out with him but I mean like, I haven't actually had real conversation with anyone but him in a while.
I really want need a guitar. I think that any sort of drive that I had toward a musical career has been abandoned. I mean, it's better than it was it was all that I thought about and completely obsessed over it. Now I'm considering more options and I don't even think about the career aspect of my life as much anymore, because I think about the things that are coming before it more often, if I even do.
I think it would also help in my incredible boredom. Additionally, it's something that is beneficial to my future(?).
I wonder if it's a good thing that I'm considering different career options. I mean, of course it's good to have options, but I really don't want to end up completely abandoning the music thing, even if it doesn't turn out to be singing (which I don't think I would really like anyway because I am not really a people person or a performer in the least). And actually, it doesn't really matter as long as it's something that I enjoy. So there.
Things have really changed this week. I like it?
Oh god I feel like it's my birthday. Afforementioned banana creme pie is now all mine(?) and it's like an entire. pie. Oh my so happy.
It's just really refreshing and relaxing (in an active way) and liberating to get outside and breathe in the cold air. Also be able to actually talk to someone and laugh and be jovial and such. I like winter, it is the best season ever. I really like going outside and walking around and being cold, and you don't really get all of those together when it is any season except winter. You also don't get that when you don't have anyone around that much to do those sort of things with. Because it's not really very fun to talk to yourself, especially when you're walking around outside and there are people.
That's why I think I would really like living in places like Canada or Iceland with Kaylen because they are so completely unfamiliar and the climate is almost ideal year-round and you know, I can walk around with someone.
But it's actually nice to go out with someone who isn't him. ...Not that I've ever been out with him but I mean like, I haven't actually had real conversation with anyone but him in a while.
I really want need a guitar. I think that any sort of drive that I had toward a musical career has been abandoned. I mean, it's better than it was it was all that I thought about and completely obsessed over it. Now I'm considering more options and I don't even think about the career aspect of my life as much anymore, because I think about the things that are coming before it more often, if I even do.
I think it would also help in my incredible boredom. Additionally, it's something that is beneficial to my future(?).
I wonder if it's a good thing that I'm considering different career options. I mean, of course it's good to have options, but I really don't want to end up completely abandoning the music thing, even if it doesn't turn out to be singing (which I don't think I would really like anyway because I am not really a people person or a performer in the least). And actually, it doesn't really matter as long as it's something that I enjoy. So there.
Things have really changed this week. I like it?
Oh god I feel like it's my birthday. Afforementioned banana creme pie is now all mine(?) and it's like an entire. pie. Oh my so happy.