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My mind is kind of clogged.
Its already been a week and a half and it seems still like it happened yesterday.
My mind is really swimming with lots of thoughts and flashbacks.
I can still remember the first day that I met her...
It was in Baldy, and I told her about Feng Shui, and I remember her yelling to Nate to say that I actually play. It seems so trivial now and silly, but I still feel like I am playing thoughts special nights over and over in my head. Probably cause I feel like ill lose the memories if I don't. The 5am nights of talking and bottles of mead and wine flowing. I remember the laughter and the ever so countless nights of CSI and talking. I am scared that the memories will fade away somehow. I am really glad however to reconnect with alot of people and actually get away from the house and go and game. I am really thankful for people out there to literally force me out of the house to go out to drink or play games or just be social.
At the wake Nate told me "we wanted to have you over but here is your birthday gift". When I got home that night and opened it, it was the necklace that broke one night and Sarah took to fix. It looked even better then before. Also in the box was another new piece of jewelry that she made. At that point I completely broke down in a way i never did before. I felt like I was literally howling up into the air, to the sky, to hope that she would hear my voice once again. It was almost like she was telling me "everything is fixed now" by giving me those things. Its also such an honor to really have probably one of the last pieces of jewelry that Rose made. I feel somewhat like I not really worth having that honor. As weird as it sounds I took a good smell of the box that it came in, and sat back and let all the memories continue to flood my brain.
Its already been a week and a half and it seems still like it happened yesterday.
My mind is really swimming with lots of thoughts and flashbacks.
I can still remember the first day that I met her...
It was in Baldy, and I told her about Feng Shui, and I remember her yelling to Nate to say that I actually play. It seems so trivial now and silly, but I still feel like I am playing thoughts special nights over and over in my head. Probably cause I feel like ill lose the memories if I don't. The 5am nights of talking and bottles of mead and wine flowing. I remember the laughter and the ever so countless nights of CSI and talking. I am scared that the memories will fade away somehow. I am really glad however to reconnect with alot of people and actually get away from the house and go and game. I am really thankful for people out there to literally force me out of the house to go out to drink or play games or just be social.
At the wake Nate told me "we wanted to have you over but here is your birthday gift". When I got home that night and opened it, it was the necklace that broke one night and Sarah took to fix. It looked even better then before. Also in the box was another new piece of jewelry that she made. At that point I completely broke down in a way i never did before. I felt like I was literally howling up into the air, to the sky, to hope that she would hear my voice once again. It was almost like she was telling me "everything is fixed now" by giving me those things. Its also such an honor to really have probably one of the last pieces of jewelry that Rose made. I feel somewhat like I not really worth having that honor. As weird as it sounds I took a good smell of the box that it came in, and sat back and let all the memories continue to flood my brain.