someday we will meet beyond the limits of who we are
......and it will be away from here.
I feel like I'm in Vanilla Sky but the bonus features edition. I keep having these unusually vivid dreams (unusual in that I generally don't remember my dreams in that much detail). So much so that when I wake up, I have to take a few minutes to work out whether or not these events actually happened. Maybe I'm just gradually going mad.
There's an Oscar Wilde quote, I think it's from The Picture of Dorian Gray, "the only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it". So should you? Doesn't giving into it only make things harder in the long run? I think so, maybe I'm wrong. If you want something, but the thing on offer is only a fraction of what you want, should you take it just so you're not left with nothing? Or should you leave it completely? I know I should follow the latter, my own logic tells me this, and yet I don't. Maybe it's because I don't remember what's it's like to be with someone. In the relationship sense that is. I don't remember so I don't miss it. So I knock back anyone who shows an interest. Perhaps I'm scared. Perhaps part of me still hopes the person I wish was interested will one day look at me as someone who isn't just disposable. Maybe it's because I'll never be good enough, maybe it's because things just aren't aligned that way. Whatever the reason, you can only run into a wall so many times before you knock yourself out.
That's probably maxed out my brain for today. I'm off to make muffins ^_^
I feel like I'm in Vanilla Sky but the bonus features edition. I keep having these unusually vivid dreams (unusual in that I generally don't remember my dreams in that much detail). So much so that when I wake up, I have to take a few minutes to work out whether or not these events actually happened. Maybe I'm just gradually going mad.
There's an Oscar Wilde quote, I think it's from The Picture of Dorian Gray, "the only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it". So should you? Doesn't giving into it only make things harder in the long run? I think so, maybe I'm wrong. If you want something, but the thing on offer is only a fraction of what you want, should you take it just so you're not left with nothing? Or should you leave it completely? I know I should follow the latter, my own logic tells me this, and yet I don't. Maybe it's because I don't remember what's it's like to be with someone. In the relationship sense that is. I don't remember so I don't miss it. So I knock back anyone who shows an interest. Perhaps I'm scared. Perhaps part of me still hopes the person I wish was interested will one day look at me as someone who isn't just disposable. Maybe it's because I'll never be good enough, maybe it's because things just aren't aligned that way. Whatever the reason, you can only run into a wall so many times before you knock yourself out.
That's probably maxed out my brain for today. I'm off to make muffins ^_^