relax don't do it
Gotta love steve. I had fun with him last night. It was great to just get out of the house and not have the past brought up. It was a great lil exscape, plus steve is cute. *giggles*
He showed up at 9. We went to the dinner then around 10:30 we went and played pool for 2 hours and then we drove around. We went on sweethollow road. I didn't get home til 2 am. I had so much fun, even thou i was being shy. I hope he had fun as well. It was the first time i was hanging out with him. Yes he's an online aim friend, and i know there is an internet killer, But he's a friend of a friend. So i trusted my friend scary mike and his choice of friends. He is my friend. hhmm...interesting..
anyway..I'm losing weight...yay...my sizes are
now h.s.
shirt 18/20 was 24/26
pants 22 was 26
bra 42 DDD was 44 DDD
undies 7/8 was 10
I feel skinny. I got two new shirts, two bras, and a new pair of pants today. I'm happy.
Tonight we are going to adventureland. Yay. I wish i could drive. I wish i never got so close to the old lady i almost ran over (hence why i don't drive) yes, a dark secret of mine..i almost ran over an old lady changing her tire, it scare my parents more then me. that happened summer before freshman year. only recently have they let me drive again. it gave them nightmare..
oh talking of nightmares....i had one last night
i was bowling with my friends on a stormy night. they told me it was them or mike, i said both, if they didn't want it then they would be the ones walking away from me, i'm not walking away from anyone. so they did. i felt so sick to my stomach i wanted to leave so i called mike and he picked me up. on the way driving me home he confessed to cheating on me, like my friends have been accusing him of. i told him to pull over and i threw up on the the lawn next to the bowling alley. He was so sorry and telling me how much he loves me. He didn't mean to. he's friends even caught it on viedo tape. he cheated on me with lauryn and it was her doing. they were drinking and she was making the moves. as he was talking to me a curled up in the lawn as it's pooring out. I was shaking and crying hysterical in my dream. mike curled up behind me and tried to pick me up and get me back into his car. he wanted to show me the viedo tape. he got me into his car and went his house and got the viedotape. We went to my house where i asked my mom to leave the livingroom because i needed to watch something rather important with out her being in the room. she asked about it but finally agreed to go into the other room as let me and mike watch it. On the tape mike got so wasted he was spending the night at a friends house. Lauryn was there and said to the guy with the camera "hey watch this" she then went to mike and started to unzip his pants. he was so wasted he could only swat like a lil kitten and say no. she started to give him head and he started to moan my name. Then he tried to push her off so the she stopped so he relaxed and she unzipped her pants and jumped onto his cock and started to ride him. mike grabbed her sat up and threw her off him. he called her a fucking dirty whore and then wrestled the camera out of the guys hand and that was the end. in my dream he then begged me to still keep him, i told him under one condition will i think about staying with him, that he never talks, hangs out or deals with lauryn ever again. he agreed to it. i woke up shaking and crying, then i threw up.
i called mike and asked him if he cheated on me would he tell me, he told me yes. so it calmed my nerves. i love him. i love my friends.
well i gtg get ready for tonight
He showed up at 9. We went to the dinner then around 10:30 we went and played pool for 2 hours and then we drove around. We went on sweethollow road. I didn't get home til 2 am. I had so much fun, even thou i was being shy. I hope he had fun as well. It was the first time i was hanging out with him. Yes he's an online aim friend, and i know there is an internet killer, But he's a friend of a friend. So i trusted my friend scary mike and his choice of friends. He is my friend. hhmm...interesting..
anyway..I'm losing weight...yay...my sizes are
now h.s.
shirt 18/20 was 24/26
pants 22 was 26
bra 42 DDD was 44 DDD
undies 7/8 was 10
I feel skinny. I got two new shirts, two bras, and a new pair of pants today. I'm happy.
Tonight we are going to adventureland. Yay. I wish i could drive. I wish i never got so close to the old lady i almost ran over (hence why i don't drive) yes, a dark secret of mine..i almost ran over an old lady changing her tire, it scare my parents more then me. that happened summer before freshman year. only recently have they let me drive again. it gave them nightmare..
oh talking of nightmares....i had one last night
i was bowling with my friends on a stormy night. they told me it was them or mike, i said both, if they didn't want it then they would be the ones walking away from me, i'm not walking away from anyone. so they did. i felt so sick to my stomach i wanted to leave so i called mike and he picked me up. on the way driving me home he confessed to cheating on me, like my friends have been accusing him of. i told him to pull over and i threw up on the the lawn next to the bowling alley. He was so sorry and telling me how much he loves me. He didn't mean to. he's friends even caught it on viedo tape. he cheated on me with lauryn and it was her doing. they were drinking and she was making the moves. as he was talking to me a curled up in the lawn as it's pooring out. I was shaking and crying hysterical in my dream. mike curled up behind me and tried to pick me up and get me back into his car. he wanted to show me the viedo tape. he got me into his car and went his house and got the viedotape. We went to my house where i asked my mom to leave the livingroom because i needed to watch something rather important with out her being in the room. she asked about it but finally agreed to go into the other room as let me and mike watch it. On the tape mike got so wasted he was spending the night at a friends house. Lauryn was there and said to the guy with the camera "hey watch this" she then went to mike and started to unzip his pants. he was so wasted he could only swat like a lil kitten and say no. she started to give him head and he started to moan my name. Then he tried to push her off so the she stopped so he relaxed and she unzipped her pants and jumped onto his cock and started to ride him. mike grabbed her sat up and threw her off him. he called her a fucking dirty whore and then wrestled the camera out of the guys hand and that was the end. in my dream he then begged me to still keep him, i told him under one condition will i think about staying with him, that he never talks, hangs out or deals with lauryn ever again. he agreed to it. i woke up shaking and crying, then i threw up.
i called mike and asked him if he cheated on me would he tell me, he told me yes. so it calmed my nerves. i love him. i love my friends.
well i gtg get ready for tonight