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I want to marry James. I want to be the mother of his child. It's the only dreams I have left in my life. That may seem pathetic or dramtic to some of you but I have never wanted something this bad. It was my life long dream to be an astronaut, until I had to give it up as a result of a mental breakdown in college. I sometimes look back on that dream and feel sadness, but the passion and love behind my new ones makes me realize that being an astronaut was not my true calling.
Today James said something that took me completely by suprise. He told me that he often secretly hopes that I would have an "accident". Like my period never comes, there's a mad dash to the store for a test, and it comes out positive. He says we may be two messed up people but we would be great parents together. I couldn't really make an intelligent response, but my heart was dancing.
I don't know if he'll ever want to get married again. I think Heather kind of ruined the idea of it for him.
Something major has happened with my health in the last few days. I will save that for another post.
Today James said something that took me completely by suprise. He told me that he often secretly hopes that I would have an "accident". Like my period never comes, there's a mad dash to the store for a test, and it comes out positive. He says we may be two messed up people but we would be great parents together. I couldn't really make an intelligent response, but my heart was dancing.
I don't know if he'll ever want to get married again. I think Heather kind of ruined the idea of it for him.
Something major has happened with my health in the last few days. I will save that for another post.