wow, that was completely unexpected. i'm glad it happened but i wish there was some kind of finality
wow i tried to get to know my dad today.
it isnt what you think because he is in no way like normal dads.
i had to dig and dig just for him to talk.
it is aparant that he has parenting / parent issues.
at times i could tell he wanted to hit me.
the ar ride was too short.
i cried at the end of it because i knew that while i was getting so close, the opertunity was almost over. and this opertunity will never come again.
i almost started to see something worth salvaging in him.
while ths conversation pretty much all came in argument form, i feel like it was the best conversation that i have ever had with him. i didn't get much.
in fact, if you saw it you wouldn't think it was a big deal, but this may have ACTUALLY been the only conversation that we have really EVVVVER had.
we were talking about our problems with eachother though so it was intense and hard to handle.
this was the only time that we've actually talked and not just pretended to listen/care.
actually when he was still trying to be tuff and proud, he pretended not to listen.
i felt is facad chipping, but in no way breaking.
it was mostly negative and i should be really sad because we aren't really on good sides but i'm almost happy now that i think of it because this may be a start.
i want everyone who cares to try to pray that one day my dad and will know eachother.
thank you God for giving me this much.
and, nothing has been resolved yet, but the process may have begun.
this was the first time i have ever had a conversation with him.
i am sad though because i was so close to something huge, and i may have lost my chance forever.
please prey that i didnt lose this chance.
it isnt what you think because he is in no way like normal dads.
i had to dig and dig just for him to talk.
it is aparant that he has parenting / parent issues.
at times i could tell he wanted to hit me.
the ar ride was too short.
i cried at the end of it because i knew that while i was getting so close, the opertunity was almost over. and this opertunity will never come again.
i almost started to see something worth salvaging in him.
while ths conversation pretty much all came in argument form, i feel like it was the best conversation that i have ever had with him. i didn't get much.
in fact, if you saw it you wouldn't think it was a big deal, but this may have ACTUALLY been the only conversation that we have really EVVVVER had.
we were talking about our problems with eachother though so it was intense and hard to handle.
this was the only time that we've actually talked and not just pretended to listen/care.
actually when he was still trying to be tuff and proud, he pretended not to listen.
i felt is facad chipping, but in no way breaking.
it was mostly negative and i should be really sad because we aren't really on good sides but i'm almost happy now that i think of it because this may be a start.
i want everyone who cares to try to pray that one day my dad and will know eachother.
thank you God for giving me this much.
and, nothing has been resolved yet, but the process may have begun.
this was the first time i have ever had a conversation with him.
i am sad though because i was so close to something huge, and i may have lost my chance forever.
please prey that i didnt lose this chance.