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I need to get something off my chest.
I received information (not something I was trying t track down, but something that came up in conversation) that I had been lied to. Not that lying to me is that big a deal, in itself. That the lies come from somebody that was:
A: Involved with me
B: Preaching at me about Openness and Honesty
C: Had nearly 30 years of history with me
D: at one point, held the decision making ability in my Advance Directive.
Yes, this person literally had the power to make life or death decisions about me, but could not be honest with me.
The source of the information has no motivation to have lied to me, yet I find it hard to believe I could have been so deceived. Although in actuality, what I got was a confirmation of something I had suspected, but could never prove.
I had other suspicions, when said person started playing things really close to the vest, and asked about them. All were firmly denied. In light of what I recently learned, I feel that the protests were far too strong. My confidence in everything from that person is shaken.
I've been sitting on this mulling it over. It hurts. But she's not an active part of my world any more. She may read this, she may not. I'm not naming names, but there are enough clues that she can recognize herself. Some others may recognize her also. But I'm not going to ask her if it's true. It really doesn't matter anymore.
I guess all I wanted to do was vent a bit. Normally I would screen comments, but I'm not going to.
I received information (not something I was trying t track down, but something that came up in conversation) that I had been lied to. Not that lying to me is that big a deal, in itself. That the lies come from somebody that was:
A: Involved with me
B: Preaching at me about Openness and Honesty
C: Had nearly 30 years of history with me
D: at one point, held the decision making ability in my Advance Directive.
Yes, this person literally had the power to make life or death decisions about me, but could not be honest with me.
The source of the information has no motivation to have lied to me, yet I find it hard to believe I could have been so deceived. Although in actuality, what I got was a confirmation of something I had suspected, but could never prove.
I had other suspicions, when said person started playing things really close to the vest, and asked about them. All were firmly denied. In light of what I recently learned, I feel that the protests were far too strong. My confidence in everything from that person is shaken.
I've been sitting on this mulling it over. It hurts. But she's not an active part of my world any more. She may read this, she may not. I'm not naming names, but there are enough clues that she can recognize herself. Some others may recognize her also. But I'm not going to ask her if it's true. It really doesn't matter anymore.
I guess all I wanted to do was vent a bit. Normally I would screen comments, but I'm not going to.