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So, here I sit in the middle of the night at work. Life is moving on, as I prepare to move out and rejoin the ranks of the "Single". But only from the legal standpoint. I have my ladies that are very close to me, and are a huge part of my life, and am really glad that they are with me.
So I'm preparing to move. Two doors down (as somebody mentioned, think of all the gas you will save moving that much closer to work. (less then a hundred feet)
Why am I doing this. Why not try to co-exist like I originally planned. Because my anxiety is increasing, and I am starting to have panic attacks. We need to make this break happen. I need to feel like I want to go home after work, not dread it. This is a step that I need to make for me.
I'll still be there for the princess. Just a couple doors away, and hopefully there when she needs me.
In other news, I downloaded the contents of my LJ as a PDF book, and have been rereading it from the beginning. I see how my life has changed, and the people in it. Who still comments once in a while, and who has faded into the past. I've laughed at my own posts and your responses to them, and cried over some other ones. I've read Bri's responses to my posts, and wondered where the woman I married went. That makes me sad. I set the userpic on this one to one of our old family portraits. Probably the last time I will use it.
I know I haven't posted a lot on here recently, but I want to thank those that have kept me on their friends list and do still comment, or even just read. It helps to know that you folks are out there. Some of you I really know in person, some I'd like to know, some I won't and never will, but after reading of your lives, I feel like I know you better then I could know somebody on facebook.
Well, before I ramble on any more...Good Night, and good loves...
So I'm preparing to move. Two doors down (as somebody mentioned, think of all the gas you will save moving that much closer to work. (less then a hundred feet)
Why am I doing this. Why not try to co-exist like I originally planned. Because my anxiety is increasing, and I am starting to have panic attacks. We need to make this break happen. I need to feel like I want to go home after work, not dread it. This is a step that I need to make for me.
I'll still be there for the princess. Just a couple doors away, and hopefully there when she needs me.
In other news, I downloaded the contents of my LJ as a PDF book, and have been rereading it from the beginning. I see how my life has changed, and the people in it. Who still comments once in a while, and who has faded into the past. I've laughed at my own posts and your responses to them, and cried over some other ones. I've read Bri's responses to my posts, and wondered where the woman I married went. That makes me sad. I set the userpic on this one to one of our old family portraits. Probably the last time I will use it.
I know I haven't posted a lot on here recently, but I want to thank those that have kept me on their friends list and do still comment, or even just read. It helps to know that you folks are out there. Some of you I really know in person, some I'd like to know, some I won't and never will, but after reading of your lives, I feel like I know you better then I could know somebody on facebook.
Well, before I ramble on any more...Good Night, and good loves...