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lately i gave been on the absolute verge of tears, and i just dont understand why i am so upset. just seeing corey, babich, rico, tony, landon, stephen, and wes up there made me ball. i can not stand it when men cry. and when wes hugged me and started balling, i just lost it. through all the beef and drama, im glad i can be with all of them and still be some form of comfort. i need to call some people.. remind them i love them. i hate this feeling. i feel so alone lately and i hate it. i wanna cry, but i cant. i hope i can get back to the way it used to be. i wanna be happy and free forever. i wanna move out. i wanna do whatever i want. i want a tatoo. i wanna live... before its too late. i hate being emotional. i hate everything negative. i have been thinking alot and i am not too happy with alot right now. i have decided to take actions against alot. i am never having sex anymore, i hate it. its stupid, too. i have no idea what the fuck im talking about anymore. im rambling and im tired of alot right now.