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the burlesque show went super well. two of the girls asked me to work on other projects that they are starting up, so i guess i didn't suck! i had thought it'd be really creepy to have people i'm good friends with in real life come watch me, but it actually made it easier to perform somehow, hahah.
the girls are amazing. the environment was killer, and hard to describe if you weren't there. it was like... it felt underground, i guess, without feeling scary or seedy. that doesn't make sense. but yeah.
i need to keep doing this.
since about middle school, i have completely hated my body and everything about my appearance. it comes and goes as far as extremes, but it has always been there since about age 11 or 12. over the past year or so, with the help of therapy, medication, and most of all support from my family and friends, i've finally started to emerge from my self-hatred rut.
that basically just got me feeling neutral about my appearance, though. my relationship with jason is what really started making me like the way i look in the slightest. he loves me and he makes me feel beautiful.
this whole burlesque movement is amazing, though. just the celebration of women, regardless of size or shape, is incredible to be a part of. there was so much love in the performance space last night, it was ridiculous. this could be what it takes for me to finally cross that line, and go from tolerating myself to actually loving myself.
this could be the start of something big, people.
the girls are amazing. the environment was killer, and hard to describe if you weren't there. it was like... it felt underground, i guess, without feeling scary or seedy. that doesn't make sense. but yeah.
i need to keep doing this.
since about middle school, i have completely hated my body and everything about my appearance. it comes and goes as far as extremes, but it has always been there since about age 11 or 12. over the past year or so, with the help of therapy, medication, and most of all support from my family and friends, i've finally started to emerge from my self-hatred rut.
that basically just got me feeling neutral about my appearance, though. my relationship with jason is what really started making me like the way i look in the slightest. he loves me and he makes me feel beautiful.
this whole burlesque movement is amazing, though. just the celebration of women, regardless of size or shape, is incredible to be a part of. there was so much love in the performance space last night, it was ridiculous. this could be what it takes for me to finally cross that line, and go from tolerating myself to actually loving myself.
this could be the start of something big, people.