Desire for words
My thoughts are still a whirlwind like a twister engulfing my mind... I try to be strong, but everytime I am it only hurts me. I try to not think of you, though it seems, you are always on my mind. Even my dreams you have been haunting. I am not sure why I am still holding on when it feels like all hope is lost. Something inside of me still wants my family together and for you to change and show me what I mean to you. I, myself, although, I need to change too. Change my mindset. I need to find Amber again and not let her go. I've found some of her... she loves writing and poetry. I have an absolute love for words. I like being happy and smiling. I enjoy music, especially all of the early 90's to the 2000's... from pop to rock. I like to feel pretty without any makeup on. I dunno. I am sure theres much more to me beyond all of this..but shes a work in progress. Which is ok