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god, fuck everything
freal.
i am experiencing, for the first time, some sort of regret about my actions. if i wish i hadn't done it, and would ACTUALLY take it back if i could, that's regret, right?
and also, somewhat separately, and more importantly, i have no goddamn balls.
at least i'm so much better at initiating hanging out.
cos otherwise id be stuck in this goddamn house all the time if i waited for someone else to try and hang out with me instead of vice versa.
i've only been here for two days and i'm about ready to slit my wrists in the bath tub.
i feel like some fucking space-filler for when people you actually want to hang out with aren't around.
also fuck periods and full moons and nobody to watching the fucking eclipse with so you have to sit around your house in a scarf and hat so you can go out and look at it for 2 minutes every 15.
FUCK FUCK FUCK.
yes.
and i don't give a shit if i am hormonal because that doesn't make a single thing less true, just more amplified, and i swear to god if one person looks at me like they're afraid i'm going to freak out before i even open my mouth or give off any sort of sign that i am being emotional, i am not talking for a week.
freal.
i am experiencing, for the first time, some sort of regret about my actions. if i wish i hadn't done it, and would ACTUALLY take it back if i could, that's regret, right?
and also, somewhat separately, and more importantly, i have no goddamn balls.
at least i'm so much better at initiating hanging out.
cos otherwise id be stuck in this goddamn house all the time if i waited for someone else to try and hang out with me instead of vice versa.
i've only been here for two days and i'm about ready to slit my wrists in the bath tub.
i feel like some fucking space-filler for when people you actually want to hang out with aren't around.
also fuck periods and full moons and nobody to watching the fucking eclipse with so you have to sit around your house in a scarf and hat so you can go out and look at it for 2 minutes every 15.
FUCK FUCK FUCK.
yes.
and i don't give a shit if i am hormonal because that doesn't make a single thing less true, just more amplified, and i swear to god if one person looks at me like they're afraid i'm going to freak out before i even open my mouth or give off any sort of sign that i am being emotional, i am not talking for a week.