I want your warm but it will only make me colder when its over..
Ask the musical magic eight ball a question and then hit shuffle on your music player. Post lyrics that best answer your question from that song.
1) Where is my LIFE going???
I remember a time I believed that the words love and pain were both one in the same
I'm gonna trade in my old ways for a new shot at life
I'm gonna change, change my direction
I'm gonna change my ways
Don't let your walls down
You might fall in love
You might fall in love----faithless Social D
2) Will I see/talk to him again?
I figured out what you're all about
And I don't think I like what I see
sooo I hope I won't be there in the end if you come around--In the end..green day
3) Do I have to make the first move?
white trash get down on your knees..
time for cake and sodomy--cake and sodomy..manson
4) Will IT ever get any less awkward and terrible?
Dont laugh
Its not as funny as it sounds
My girl fucked the singer of the Royal Crowns
Fuck it the pain won't last
Alot of beer will help it go by fast---amazing royal..darkbuster
5) What will bring me TRUUUUE happiness?
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow."--yellow..coldplay
That was just something i found and felt the urge to do because i was bored..
Either way..im still bored and wanted to write a post..about nothing probably..
This week's been kinda..odd..i dunno..things have just been hectic..not physically but emotionally. it sucks.
Yeah im just not in the mood to write anything cos ive been sitting here trying to type and i got nothing..
Alright i just typed something..had it all thought out..but i deleted it. First off thats why i hate online journals..in my actual journal i made myself never cross out or erase anything. I write it once and its what i mean. No second thoughts. Anyways. I think its amazing how a person can try to hide something that they want to say so much when they think something will or will not become of it. I dunno if anyone knows what i mean..maybe if i took the time to write the stupid thoughts you would.
Owell.
On another note..I've been thinking about my mom so much recently..well i think of her everyday but it's been different.
Maybe it's because the holidays are coming up again?
Thats why ive been pretty grumpy lately..i just miss her so much. Like earlier it was around 7:30 it was pitch black and i was taking a joy ride and listening to an OLD fiona cd..cos i was picking up her new one :) and it all of a sudden reminded me of when we'd go off and take dumb little rides to get away from Mike and we'd pop in that cd and she always made fun of me because she thought it sounded like Jessica Rabbit..lol..Ugh. And mike has been acting like an ass lately..and i think that is bringing back a lot of old memories. Cause you have to remember last time i lived here it was him always angry and drunk and my mom crying about it.
It's so retarded..but i cant help it
So yeah..needless to say..me and christopher are trying to find a new apartment with one very strict rule. Chris you know what that is..say it with me..ready?
NO TONY.
I cant wait..the last apartment was so fun :)
walking around town drunk... "THOSE PEOPLE HEARD ME..wait theyre painted people"
me being the kool aid man :) OH YEAH
The only thing we had in our fridge at all times was Beer and Coke.
Kingdom hearts and Chicken
Chris making the living room into an arcade "what the fuck are you doing?"
BOX COUCH
spitting on that mans doormat and giving him the finger when he wouldnt help
The neighbors and fucking FOOTLOOSE.
Corey and how he became the guy that lived on our floor
being bored one day and randomally deciding to change rooms
and the amazing FOUR HOUR FUCKING WALK.
I want to write more but ive got to go get SOME sleep. I hafta call my doctors office tomorrow cos im pretty sure CF clinic is the first wednesday of the month..its either that or the 2nd..but i have to get there because im not driving to lebanon when my doctor will be in manchester. I NEED to see if my port can still be accessed. Im supposed to put saline in every month but its been like 4 or something. I'm hoping it will work because if not..that would mean getting it taken out and having another surgery. WHICH WOULD SUCK. It was the worst pain i ever felt in my life but at least they gave me morphine. Wow..i just realized its been a year since i had that put in. Went by fast. Alright i need to sleep for a few hours.
:)