Bleh

[tragicrabbit]

I'm pissy and upset because I feel trapped.
I feel trapped because I don't feel good enough to go out.
I don't feel good enough because I'm bloated and uncomfortable.
Because my body doesn't work right.

All I do is sleep.
I sleep because I'm bored.
I sleep when I get upset.
I sleep because I'm lazy.

I don't think any of this is a good thing.

I think about Brandon too much.
I am glad is happy and sometimes knowing he's happy and he deserves that makes me feel better but some times it's not enough. Probably because I'm lonely. Instead of talking about it to him or anyone else, I write letters to him that he will never see.

I don't think that's a good thing either.