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I need to get the fuck out of this fucking house before I go insane. I hate my fucking father. He's a fucking piece of shit. I'm not forgiving him this time. I swear. I hate Erika because she plays whatever he says. "Why'd you go out looking for me?" "Because you were an hour and 45 minutes late, you should have been back by then" dad chimes in and all the sudden...I'm the bad guy. "She's 21 years old" I wanted to scream "and did you forget she's moderately retarded?" and later on I did, only after being screamed at and told that I'm a fucking problem and blah blah blah, because I answered the dumb cunt and asshole likes to fight. He starts screaming about how he wants me out of the house...what the fuck did I do? I didnt do a goddamn thing wrong and now he's got me bawling and he's still screaming and pointing at me and I raise my voice to defend myself over him telling me what I have ever done wrong in my life so I responded with "what are you doing to me? you're raising your voice to tell me what a screw up you think I am. If you want to dwell I can dwell with you....how about my asshole father smoking pot all the time, how about my asshole father who used to beat me..." mother fucker cuts me off "I WANT YOU OUT OF MY FUCKING HOUSE" mom chimes in "thats not what you want" he just keeps screaming it over and over like a fucking broken record...I'm at the bottom of the stairs I look at him sitting there worthless in that fucking chair while he's screaming at me and start screaming through my tears "IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT? IS THAT WHAT YOU REALLY FUCKING WANT?" and I think about it for a second and I throw my glass of soda at his fucking feet, glass flies everywhere and my mother starts screaming at him again as I run up stairs to gather some things and try to leave and she wouldnt let me. so there she is standing behind my car and now Im begging her to move and she fucking won't. greattttt. so then we just sit outside and I tell her how much I hate him. She insists I don't, I insist I do. great fucking night. All because someone is a fucking retard and got lost in Olive Bridge and of course she has to actually have a learning disability so her and driving isn't a good mix to begin with. Thanks a whole bunch. Oh and another thing-her and I were fine talking until my father butted in, so thanks for playing your usual role Erika, the victim, and thanks for teaching her to play it dad. Fuck caring about anyone in this fucking house anymore. They're all fucking worthless anyway.