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well the school year is complete for me. thinking back on it i realize that my life is much different know than it was then. probably the most major one of all is that i am clean now. i no longer need drugs to live my life which i am very happy about. i think i have grown up alot and have learned about a lot of shit especially abuot me and how things in my life work. hopefully after next year i can finally go away to get a fresh start. I have realized that this place might not be the best environment for me to live in anymore. i know that i am ready to live by myself. maybe in seclusion who knows but i know i dont need this plaec anymore and that i can survive by myself. Suprisingly enough i actually have a job, its kind of like an end to an era. In the past year things seem different. things i used to know so well seem foreign to me. maybe this is a wake up call. something to tell myself to fucking do something with my life. maybe ill find out maybe i wont. i really think im going insane.