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i wish i havent been talking to my dad so much about politics. because it's starting to make me doubt myself, which is exactly why i dont want to live here anymore. because everything here makes you doubt. they just hate and discourage things and thats the only reason they do things. they're rich because they dont want to be poor. they have war because they dont want others to attack. i want to live in italy because i want to be in the sun and feel love. that sounds gross, but that the only reason. i mean, i dont want to live in this country, but thats only because i dont want to not feel love. so i talked to my dad about how i hate this country and i dont trust whos running it and now he thinks i'm a poranoid little girl. "no, i dont think your naive. no, i dont think you're stupid. it's horrible to be paranoid though. you shouldnt think those things. you shouldnt think how you do." i guess i'm just as guilty for fighting with him about it. i put the things he says down too. but i still cant stand it. i dont want to talk to him about it anymore. about anything that has to do with this country. because i cant get my point across either and i think of things to say, but i can see what he thinks and if i say the things i want he'll turn it around to me being stupid and naive and liberal. no more! no more i say! i will move out of the country! maybe i wont find what i want, but i will keep searching until i do! i wont settle for a job that pays well and a husband that's the same. that is something that all of us conservatives and hippies can agree on.