Blech
I'm not sure what I'm feeling today. I kinda feel like my head is going to explode. A little sad and sulky and lonley today...hopefully that will pass. I'm kinda coming to terms with the whole Bailey shit. I'm just at an I don't really care if I ever see and or talk to her ever again. She is just not who I went out with and not who I dated. Everything about her is now just ugly and unattractive. I don't think I would ever ever ever go there again, and now I know what I DON'T want lol.On the Sheree hand, GRRRRRRR, this girl has been driving me nutso for like the past two months because she is just way too attatched to me and I don't really understand it, I mean last night she told me to go kill myself multiple times because I didn't want to turn around and drive an hour back home to take Rylee to the hospital. It is so funny that whenever I am actually going to go out and do something without her or whatever rylee gets sick or she gets stranded somewhere and for some reason I am the only one that can EVER help her out because she is too helpless to help herself. I have been telling her for the past two months, Hey I don't want to be with you I'm not attracted to your personality and we clash way too much for anything to ever really work anyways. Ug, seriously she has some shit, ok alot of shit, to work out before anything would even be CONCIEVABLE. And, I don't even want to go there. that was just a mistake all over the place. I mean I love Rylee to death but I can't handle Sheree therefore I have to give up on trying to see Rylee. I just have a ton of crap going through my brain right now that I don't know what to do with.Ok now for something happy...Taking Back Sunday show is in like 21 days or so and my Birthday is in like 22 or something close to that. Me Lena and Amanda are trying to find a place we can afford, which is hard because we need to be close to everything and a place that will take my Jackson. It was really nice hanging out with family today, I love them to death, by far, best thing to ever happen to me (my moms side dads can just fuck off) but I didnt get anything for my mom so I just finished making a card for her. My computer was in crash mode so I reset the factory blah blah blah and now I can't put my Zune software on it :(. I also lost all my pictures and music. ALL my pictures, the ones of me and Bailey that I was trying to keep are gone gone gone gone gone forever and ever....maybe it's a blessing??? I guess I just want someone here with me right now to watch movies and play Mario lol.