looking at my options
i am liking the college i am at yes. but i have been thinking of what i am going to do when my birth mother moves up here to be with me what i am going to do about school. yes i am going to continue to go to college that is not the problem...it is what college i am going to that is bothering me.she is moving up here to be with me and to get some kind of realionship, so i don't really want to be this far away from her. so i am thinking about mott or saginaw valley. i know my dad thinks that i should stay here at spring arbor, but i can't base my life on what he wantas anymore...i am alomost 20 and i got to grow up and think about my life and what is best for my dreams. i have been praying and i know that God is making it possible for my birth mother to move here for a reason, so i know that a college closer to home would be a better idea. and yes for all those out there that think there may be more than my birth mother that is making me make think things over...i want to be closer to josh. i have nothing to hide in that desire. i can't stand being away from him...he makes me complete and to be away from him...well it makes me feel like there is something missing. i know that i have to search God some more before i make my decision...but so all know...no one os going to influence the decisions i make. like i stated in my previous entry, it stresses me out. i love being able to make a decision based on prayer and my own dreams rather than on the fear of pleasing everyone else.
i have been so much happy these past few days ...don't really know why but i am not complaining at all! :)
the homework is really not that bad either...my dad made a comment to me last weekend about how if i tried, really tried, it might make a difference, so instead of doing a assingment and flying by with it bacause i find it comes rather easy to me, i have been sitting down and really looking at the material and trying to make something of it. i am finally enjoying my old testament class. maybe school has never really been that bad after all...
i have been so much happy these past few days ...don't really know why but i am not complaining at all! :)
the homework is really not that bad either...my dad made a comment to me last weekend about how if i tried, really tried, it might make a difference, so instead of doing a assingment and flying by with it bacause i find it comes rather easy to me, i have been sitting down and really looking at the material and trying to make something of it. i am finally enjoying my old testament class. maybe school has never really been that bad after all...