Failure.
Because of the hospitalization my parents wanted me to leave Simmons, we reached a compromise and decided that I would take next semester off. I feel like such a failure. Everyone I know is excited to go back to school and I'm going to waste a couple months of my life at home. I know what I need to do. I need to pull up my grades so I can transfer somewhere else. Maybe another place in Boston or maybe a school in New York. I know lots of people take time off from school and that I shouldn't be ashamed of doing so, but I really feel like a big time loser. I keep telling myself it's just a few months and then I go back to Simmons. I've decided I'm going to pull up my grades and transfer somewhere where I'll be happier. I think I want to study speech therapy. I am extremely frustrated right now. I really hate myself at the moment. /angst