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Today was a weird day. First off, my family is irking the fucking hell out of me. I think my blood pressure is through the roof right now. My dad is such a little baby. He honestly acts like a two year old sometimes, and they wonder why I'm so picky/neurotic. My family will not let me go, and furthermore they get angry at me for wanting to distance myself somewhat. I'm almost 19 years old. They won't let me do anything. I'm at the point now where I don't give a fuck what the hell car they stupid buy me, just get me something drivable so I can get a god damn job. *whimpers* It's very annoying, I feel trapped, and depressed.
I also had an appointment today to get some lab work done. They ended up wanting to take like 6 vials of blood, and yeah it didn't go well. I've been really out of sorts lately physically. I get nauseous very easily, and I mean to the point of almost passing out with nausea (my body passes out rather then pukes). I also feel tired a lot, and I go through phases of either being so ravenous that I could eat anything, to being so "full" feeling that I couldn't possibly eat if I wanted to (no matter what it is I eat, rather it be a lot or a little). The nausea and feeling faint all the time is really what bothers me. I've been eating as normally as possible, and taking my vitamin everyday. I've been ultra careful to make sure to eat/take care of myself. I still feel funky though. My body also feels weird, I have noticed weird changes. Like how my legs now carry more of my fat, and my upper body a little less. My hips also feel funky, like I can put my hands on the top of them, and they seem further up or something (not to mention sore). Sometimes it feels like my insides are shaking. At the doctor's office, they were getting the blood from me (they had just finished I do believe, or they finished while I was knocked out) when I passed out. The nurse said she barely caught me before I toppled forward into the floor. She woke me up with smelling salts, and after a few seconds I passed out again. This time I woke up to several nurses standing around me, and they gave me orange juice/a cool compress to press to my head/and a little thing in case I decided vomiting would be something I would do. I held the compress on my head, set the container in my lap, and took a few gulps of the orange juice hoping it would be my savior when I said "I'm really dizzy", and passed out yet again spilling the juice in my lap. The nurses said that I passed out two more times after that, but I just remember that time, and then waking up with my head leaning slightly against the nurse that was gracious enough to hold me up. I kept apologizing, because I felt horrible I was causing so much trouble (it was now their lunch time, and yeah I felt HORRIBLE over it all), they were nice and kept reassuring me/joking with me, even while I was still busy being dizzy. They had me put my head between my knees, and when I didn't get all of my color back they put me in a wheel chair, and took me to a room to lay down for a bit. They were really nice to me there, and though I still get extremely nervous around doctors, I'm a lot better then I was two weeks ago. The doctor saw me (though she was very busy, and I wasn't supposed to), she checked me out, and there was nothing exactly pressing about my condition (by this time I was simply weak, and no longer passing out). So yeah, that was just weird. I'm glad my mother wasn't in there with me, I couldn't have handled her being in there with me. I just wish I knew what was wrong with me. It's very irksome, and a little unnerving to know something is going on, and I don't have a clue as to what. Maybe the results of my labs shall be enlightening. Right now I'm sleepy, and very sick to my stomach. I think I'll go study, or something.
I also had an appointment today to get some lab work done. They ended up wanting to take like 6 vials of blood, and yeah it didn't go well. I've been really out of sorts lately physically. I get nauseous very easily, and I mean to the point of almost passing out with nausea (my body passes out rather then pukes). I also feel tired a lot, and I go through phases of either being so ravenous that I could eat anything, to being so "full" feeling that I couldn't possibly eat if I wanted to (no matter what it is I eat, rather it be a lot or a little). The nausea and feeling faint all the time is really what bothers me. I've been eating as normally as possible, and taking my vitamin everyday. I've been ultra careful to make sure to eat/take care of myself. I still feel funky though. My body also feels weird, I have noticed weird changes. Like how my legs now carry more of my fat, and my upper body a little less. My hips also feel funky, like I can put my hands on the top of them, and they seem further up or something (not to mention sore). Sometimes it feels like my insides are shaking. At the doctor's office, they were getting the blood from me (they had just finished I do believe, or they finished while I was knocked out) when I passed out. The nurse said she barely caught me before I toppled forward into the floor. She woke me up with smelling salts, and after a few seconds I passed out again. This time I woke up to several nurses standing around me, and they gave me orange juice/a cool compress to press to my head/and a little thing in case I decided vomiting would be something I would do. I held the compress on my head, set the container in my lap, and took a few gulps of the orange juice hoping it would be my savior when I said "I'm really dizzy", and passed out yet again spilling the juice in my lap. The nurses said that I passed out two more times after that, but I just remember that time, and then waking up with my head leaning slightly against the nurse that was gracious enough to hold me up. I kept apologizing, because I felt horrible I was causing so much trouble (it was now their lunch time, and yeah I felt HORRIBLE over it all), they were nice and kept reassuring me/joking with me, even while I was still busy being dizzy. They had me put my head between my knees, and when I didn't get all of my color back they put me in a wheel chair, and took me to a room to lay down for a bit. They were really nice to me there, and though I still get extremely nervous around doctors, I'm a lot better then I was two weeks ago. The doctor saw me (though she was very busy, and I wasn't supposed to), she checked me out, and there was nothing exactly pressing about my condition (by this time I was simply weak, and no longer passing out). So yeah, that was just weird. I'm glad my mother wasn't in there with me, I couldn't have handled her being in there with me. I just wish I knew what was wrong with me. It's very irksome, and a little unnerving to know something is going on, and I don't have a clue as to what. Maybe the results of my labs shall be enlightening. Right now I'm sleepy, and very sick to my stomach. I think I'll go study, or something.