And I'm back!...
Well not really because even though I am moved into my new house, I still don't have internet so I'm only back when my friends decide to be nice and let me use their internet.
I was having an interesting conversation with Alex (Sanchez) tonight and we were talking about relationships with our family, more specifically our parents. I already know that my relationship with my mom totally and completely sucks and I don't see it getting better any time soon. The way I feel about it right now is that I just don't want to have a relationship with her. Maybe in time we can start over and actually have somewhat of a relationship, but as for right now the only reason we talk is because my dad makes me call her and will probably make me go see her for Easter break or for a part of summer vacation. As for the relationship with my dad, I thought that it was okay, until Alex made me realize that it's almost exactly like the one he has with his dad. My dad and I, I guess you could say we used to be close in the sense that we talked and did stuff with each other, but ever since his girlfriend came along we don't really do much of either. I mean I don't usually see my dad in the morning, unless he goes to work late and even then I don't really talk to him, and then when he gets home from work we'll usually say a couple things to each other, but then go to our rooms and do whatever or I won't even be home. Alex pointed out that once his dad got remarried he stopped talking to his dad just because he hated his stepmom and she was always around. I just hope that doesn't happen with me and my dad. I already have one relationship with a parent fucked up, and it would be nice not to have two, but seeing how my dad's girlfriend is really getting on my nerves lately to the point where I don't want to talk to her, it will probably get that way.
I also don't like the situation I have with my friends right now. It feels weird, but maybe it just takes some getting used to after not seeing them for over 2 weeks. I feel out of place when I'm around them.
I realized the other day that my life is moving really fast. I can't believe that in 5 months I'm going to be 18. That's insane. In a way you could say that I've been waiting for this for awhie, but now that it's approaching I want it to slow down. I feel like I still have a lot of growing/learning to do.
I spent a lot of my Christmas break (or at least whatever free time I had) with Alex Glass, and I've come to realize that I like hanging out with her a lot.
I don't know what else to say, so bye for now.