small note.
Dear self:
EAT before you decide to consume copious amounts of alcohol.
I forgot that I hadn't eaten dinner, and then drank my ass off. Fuck, my head hurts. Fuck.
When I thought that I wanted to make more mistakes and take more risks yesterday, this is not what I meant. Ugh.
I need to hurt myself in order to get stronger, I feel. Not physically, but emotionally. I am an emotional weakling.
This was brought up in my mind while we were watching a documentary about horror. It was saying how people are exploratory and that they like getting themselves scared. I am not so much like that, but what if I were? I wouldn't be so squishy like I am now.
I can't even type any more. I need to lie down. ttyl.
EAT before you decide to consume copious amounts of alcohol.
I forgot that I hadn't eaten dinner, and then drank my ass off. Fuck, my head hurts. Fuck.
When I thought that I wanted to make more mistakes and take more risks yesterday, this is not what I meant. Ugh.
I need to hurt myself in order to get stronger, I feel. Not physically, but emotionally. I am an emotional weakling.
This was brought up in my mind while we were watching a documentary about horror. It was saying how people are exploratory and that they like getting themselves scared. I am not so much like that, but what if I were? I wouldn't be so squishy like I am now.
I can't even type any more. I need to lie down. ttyl.