"Die"ry : an anorexics thanksgiving .................
Whats the best feeling for a girl like me on the morning after thanksgiving? .....Weighing myself to find i dont weigh more then 95 lbs lol.
So heres what happened on my thanksgiving...... got up at 7 am ,took a bath , got dressed .At 9 am I left my house to head over to joe & lane's .Arrived at 9:45 and then we all (joe / lane /cj and I)got in lanes truck and headed to orlando.We got there around 12:00pm. When I first walked in randa (who has not seen me in a wile) said "you've lost weight" ( the best three words in the world lol).So we all where just siting down , I was talking to some people ....this one guy asked me how old i am and when I said 18 he was like "are you realy? you look like your 13" lol.Then I was geting realy cold even though it was not that cold I started shakeing. Then someone gave me a sweater and i moved over to a chare and put a blanket over me.Around 1 Randa and others put out the appetizerz .. (bread with a dip / assorted crackers with spreads) .Around 2 i decided to munch on the appetizers a little so i was eating a little bit of the bread & dip , joe asked me to try a cracker with this spread so i did.Then at 3 The main meal was served. I was eating at the same table that joe was so I knew he would be watching what i eat .I made my plate (turkey / mash potato's / stuffing/bread/gravy/corn/green beans / and a little bit of apple sauce and some grapes. so I would have a LITTLE of everything so it would cover my plate but I would not have to eat a lot of anything ) Then I sat down at the table. I sat still for a min just looking at the food then I started to eat it but i took my time. Joe made a joke like "you have to eat everything on your plate or no dessert" lol .Then I finished eating and joe said "wow did you feed your plate to the dogs?" and I said "the dogs where not out here " lol then he was like "you can get more if you want " I said "no" of course. Joe said "now if you eat like this for a week you should be fine" I just laugh.He also said "see that even randa noticed you lost weight" I said "maybe she was just saying that to be nice" he said people dont just say that to people who where thin to begin with just to be nice" I just shruged. Then I was feeling a little sick cuz I was so full and joe noticed he told me I just have to tell myself that i feel fine .I almost cryed but i held it back except for geting a little teary .Then we went back inside {joe , the 2 little kids and i where eating outside) and we all where where just siting around hanging out , joe ,lane,randa and i went to look at a house that was for sale . I thought it was realy beautifull.Then we came back .This one guy had a camra and was takeing pics , he took one of me when i was not expecting it so I said "hey you gotta let me take one poseing" lol so I posed and he said "thats a realy grate picture" .Then the disseart came out but i did not eat any.Joe / lanie / cj and I left .We went to see kile who is lanies other son .Then we headed back to tampa . We got back and droped lanie off at there house and joe and i where gonna take cj to get ice cream because he was good the whole time (he is 5). I said to joe "I am so full" he said "you did not even eat that much " I said "I think i did" then i was like "so....did I embarris you ...lol ..." he said "no of cource not , I would just prefer you didnt have your eating problem".So then we went back to his and lanies house and I gave hugs to him and cj and went home myself.This morning I got up at 9:50 am weighed myself and to my suprize it said 95lbs I was soooooooooo happy it did not say any higher lol.
So heres what happened on my thanksgiving...... got up at 7 am ,took a bath , got dressed .At 9 am I left my house to head over to joe & lane's .Arrived at 9:45 and then we all (joe / lane /cj and I)got in lanes truck and headed to orlando.We got there around 12:00pm. When I first walked in randa (who has not seen me in a wile) said "you've lost weight" ( the best three words in the world lol).So we all where just siting down , I was talking to some people ....this one guy asked me how old i am and when I said 18 he was like "are you realy? you look like your 13" lol.Then I was geting realy cold even though it was not that cold I started shakeing. Then someone gave me a sweater and i moved over to a chare and put a blanket over me.Around 1 Randa and others put out the appetizerz .. (bread with a dip / assorted crackers with spreads) .Around 2 i decided to munch on the appetizers a little so i was eating a little bit of the bread & dip , joe asked me to try a cracker with this spread so i did.Then at 3 The main meal was served. I was eating at the same table that joe was so I knew he would be watching what i eat .I made my plate (turkey / mash potato's / stuffing/bread/gravy/corn/green beans / and a little bit of apple sauce and some grapes. so I would have a LITTLE of everything so it would cover my plate but I would not have to eat a lot of anything ) Then I sat down at the table. I sat still for a min just looking at the food then I started to eat it but i took my time. Joe made a joke like "you have to eat everything on your plate or no dessert" lol .Then I finished eating and joe said "wow did you feed your plate to the dogs?" and I said "the dogs where not out here " lol then he was like "you can get more if you want " I said "no" of course. Joe said "now if you eat like this for a week you should be fine" I just laugh.He also said "see that even randa noticed you lost weight" I said "maybe she was just saying that to be nice" he said people dont just say that to people who where thin to begin with just to be nice" I just shruged. Then I was feeling a little sick cuz I was so full and joe noticed he told me I just have to tell myself that i feel fine .I almost cryed but i held it back except for geting a little teary .Then we went back inside {joe , the 2 little kids and i where eating outside) and we all where where just siting around hanging out , joe ,lane,randa and i went to look at a house that was for sale . I thought it was realy beautifull.Then we came back .This one guy had a camra and was takeing pics , he took one of me when i was not expecting it so I said "hey you gotta let me take one poseing" lol so I posed and he said "thats a realy grate picture" .Then the disseart came out but i did not eat any.Joe / lanie / cj and I left .We went to see kile who is lanies other son .Then we headed back to tampa . We got back and droped lanie off at there house and joe and i where gonna take cj to get ice cream because he was good the whole time (he is 5). I said to joe "I am so full" he said "you did not even eat that much " I said "I think i did" then i was like "so....did I embarris you ...lol ..." he said "no of cource not , I would just prefer you didnt have your eating problem".So then we went back to his and lanies house and I gave hugs to him and cj and went home myself.This morning I got up at 9:50 am weighed myself and to my suprize it said 95lbs I was soooooooooo happy it did not say any higher lol.