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You know, I'm going to prove human combustion. I swear to whichever god that will listen.
I got the results of my bone scan. OF COURSE. My foot has been fractured since august. Of course. Who could expect anything BETTER than that?! Not to mention I have to use a crutch and I can't stand for more thn 2 hours at a time. Now here's the kicker. I have to do this. For 8. Weeks. 8 long weeks. It's impossible. Impossible! I have to work! 5 hours or more at a time! At least I don't have to walk. I just stand in one place. But what about the play? Drama? Indoor? My LIFE? After I found this out, the chick at Greenmount statioin messed up my order and I just started to cry. I'm so stressed out! Not to mention I'm going for my driving test tomorrow and I can just FEEL that failing coming on. UGH!
I have to DANCE in the play. How am I supposed to dance with a crutch and not being able to stand on it! I HATE THIS. It's so ridiculous. If I hadn't fallen 4 fucking months ago I wouldn't be so fucked up. GOD. 8 weeks is forever for just slipping on the floor. It's not even like I broke it and needed a cast but it takes just as damn long. I feel like a cripple! But I can't just let it go because it hurts all the time. I'm just so USED to it. I should probably just quit indoor but I LOVE it soo much. I can't give something like that up! I really wish I could just like walk (Ha walk) to someone's house and just have someone who cares be near me. But no one is even 10 minutes away. Takes 15 minutes to get to Ally or Shannen ugh. Just. UGH.
I really hope I pass my driving test. If I do I'm going to Shannen's house. Randomly. And I'd probably wake her up at 10 in the morning. Ha. Oh well. I just need something good in my life. That's the only thing NOT effected by my foot. Well, except the fact that I can't drive a stick and I haven't had a chance to ever LEARN because my foots been damages so long.
I need a hug. =(. And a friend. -Sigh-
I think I'm going to call someone. I wish someone could come over =(.
I got the results of my bone scan. OF COURSE. My foot has been fractured since august. Of course. Who could expect anything BETTER than that?! Not to mention I have to use a crutch and I can't stand for more thn 2 hours at a time. Now here's the kicker. I have to do this. For 8. Weeks. 8 long weeks. It's impossible. Impossible! I have to work! 5 hours or more at a time! At least I don't have to walk. I just stand in one place. But what about the play? Drama? Indoor? My LIFE? After I found this out, the chick at Greenmount statioin messed up my order and I just started to cry. I'm so stressed out! Not to mention I'm going for my driving test tomorrow and I can just FEEL that failing coming on. UGH!
I have to DANCE in the play. How am I supposed to dance with a crutch and not being able to stand on it! I HATE THIS. It's so ridiculous. If I hadn't fallen 4 fucking months ago I wouldn't be so fucked up. GOD. 8 weeks is forever for just slipping on the floor. It's not even like I broke it and needed a cast but it takes just as damn long. I feel like a cripple! But I can't just let it go because it hurts all the time. I'm just so USED to it. I should probably just quit indoor but I LOVE it soo much. I can't give something like that up! I really wish I could just like walk (Ha walk) to someone's house and just have someone who cares be near me. But no one is even 10 minutes away. Takes 15 minutes to get to Ally or Shannen ugh. Just. UGH.
I really hope I pass my driving test. If I do I'm going to Shannen's house. Randomly. And I'd probably wake her up at 10 in the morning. Ha. Oh well. I just need something good in my life. That's the only thing NOT effected by my foot. Well, except the fact that I can't drive a stick and I haven't had a chance to ever LEARN because my foots been damages so long.
I need a hug. =(. And a friend. -Sigh-
I think I'm going to call someone. I wish someone could come over =(.