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[tragedyinapril]

i just want to get out of here. i want a house where the windows are always open, even when it's raining outside or cold. where the door is always ajar and the vinyl is playing loud. where i wake up every morning with a certain person and walk into the living room to see a myriad of people just passed out all over the place. i want my geo to be parked outside, spray painted with all sorts of shit all over it. i want to greet each guess with a glass of wine. i want someone playing an instrument, or dancing constantly.

god, i just don't know what to do on nights like these. i just want something to hold on to, you know? something that i can believe in. something that gives me hope.

i just want something to stand on.