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how do i stay on
how do i press on
what do i have left here?
knowing that eventually everyone is going to turn against me
because i am powerless to fight back
because i won't fight back
because i can't
everything i do is under watch
under scrutiny
under fire now...
one screw up... that's all they're waiting for
so why don't i just give it to them and walk away?
"pick yourself up"
"think optimistic"
"if things are bad.. fix it"
you don't understand.
i've tried.
but it's NOT up to me anymore.
i have never felt so helpless or lost.
i have no control over this anymore.
what do i do now? what do i do now? what CAN i do now???
smile and bear it.
lay myself flat on the ground and let them trample all over me.
stomp every bit of dignity and self-esteem out of me.
but i'm not strong enough.
don't you see?
how do i press on
what do i have left here?
knowing that eventually everyone is going to turn against me
because i am powerless to fight back
because i won't fight back
because i can't
everything i do is under watch
under scrutiny
under fire now...
one screw up... that's all they're waiting for
so why don't i just give it to them and walk away?
"pick yourself up"
"think optimistic"
"if things are bad.. fix it"
you don't understand.
i've tried.
but it's NOT up to me anymore.
i have never felt so helpless or lost.
i have no control over this anymore.
what do i do now? what do i do now? what CAN i do now???
smile and bear it.
lay myself flat on the ground and let them trample all over me.
stomp every bit of dignity and self-esteem out of me.
but i'm not strong enough.
don't you see?