when the socket's not a shock enough
today was niice. i tried to stay warm and away from the starring men.
I had fun alone for one of the first times. i worked around the house, painted, wrote,drew, talked to kevin and aisha. Soaked myself with the hose and stripped for the new neighbors.
ran around the neighborhood in white(ae) undies and a pink shirt...trying to keep dry.
I was sitting in the car and my dad let me listen to elliot smith. on the main stereo....my dad has never done that before. But he did. and he began talking about how "short life was" and how "when im thrirty nine sitting in the car with my daughter[or son] listening to elliot smith, ill realize how short life is." it was weird and i got freaked out. i was talking to my dad...
i remember wanting to look niice for that special someone. but ive realized nothing will happen so ive given up. its better that i i guess..right? I look shitty and i dont care. and im glad. im tired of caring. if im ugly im ugly and youll all get over it sooner or later.
i get to see aisha tomorrow. and danielle. I havent seen them in a week. I get to see anika on sunday, jess/kate on monday. and im supposed to see someone on tuesday but forgive me i dont remember who. I get to see kevin later on in the week and my grandmother on the next monday. on the twenty third i get to go ice skating and on the 29th i go snowboarding. nothing else is all the important.
<3
I had fun alone for one of the first times. i worked around the house, painted, wrote,drew, talked to kevin and aisha. Soaked myself with the hose and stripped for the new neighbors.
ran around the neighborhood in white(ae) undies and a pink shirt...trying to keep dry.
I was sitting in the car and my dad let me listen to elliot smith. on the main stereo....my dad has never done that before. But he did. and he began talking about how "short life was" and how "when im thrirty nine sitting in the car with my daughter[or son] listening to elliot smith, ill realize how short life is." it was weird and i got freaked out. i was talking to my dad...
i remember wanting to look niice for that special someone. but ive realized nothing will happen so ive given up. its better that i i guess..right? I look shitty and i dont care. and im glad. im tired of caring. if im ugly im ugly and youll all get over it sooner or later.
i get to see aisha tomorrow. and danielle. I havent seen them in a week. I get to see anika on sunday, jess/kate on monday. and im supposed to see someone on tuesday but forgive me i dont remember who. I get to see kevin later on in the week and my grandmother on the next monday. on the twenty third i get to go ice skating and on the 29th i go snowboarding. nothing else is all the important.
<3