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So I've been thinking about friendhsips a lot recently. I seem to have lost touch with everyone that I used to know online. I'm not complaining about this, life moves on, people fall away the world keeps turning. It's the way things go and rightly so but sometimes I can't help feel a little sad about the friends I've lost.
Nothing's happened. There has been no explosive fights, nothing to make me hate the person we just aren't in the same places we used to be. My friends are very important to me. At the same time I know that it's highly unlikely we are going to be friends until we are in our OAP years. It makes me kinda sad. I think about these people and what they are doing. If they are happy now. If life is going the way that they want it to go.
What I feel might be worse though is the friendships that are over but you can't bring yourself to let go off. The people that have meant so much to you once upon a time that now you can't seem to have a conversation with. I have a few of those still left and I probablly should just let them go. Just stop thinking about them and move on with my life. The polite perfuctuory, how are you's and what have you been up too's just seem so shallow and pointless. The people that you couldn't last a day without speaking to you now barely speak to once a month. You keep reaching out, you keep trying to make contact with them. Anything to get back that easy conversation that you used to have. Anything that will spark that old sense of humour that only they understand. In the end you walk away from the conversation feeling sad and let down because the past that you used to know is changed.
It is hard, you do view these things with rose tinted glasses and however much I want things to be the way they used to be it just doesn't happen. I can force the jovality but it's not the same. I guess it's time to move on and experience new things and new people. I guess now it's time to find someone else who understands those jokes and can comprehend exactly what i mean without me saying a word. That's the thing about relationships, they are cyclical. When one person leaves another enters.
I still remember though, those people who helped me through the difficult parts. Those people who helped me to open up and share everything that I was holding inside me. Maybe friendships are meant to be temporal, the changes they induce though, those last forever.
Nothing's happened. There has been no explosive fights, nothing to make me hate the person we just aren't in the same places we used to be. My friends are very important to me. At the same time I know that it's highly unlikely we are going to be friends until we are in our OAP years. It makes me kinda sad. I think about these people and what they are doing. If they are happy now. If life is going the way that they want it to go.
What I feel might be worse though is the friendships that are over but you can't bring yourself to let go off. The people that have meant so much to you once upon a time that now you can't seem to have a conversation with. I have a few of those still left and I probablly should just let them go. Just stop thinking about them and move on with my life. The polite perfuctuory, how are you's and what have you been up too's just seem so shallow and pointless. The people that you couldn't last a day without speaking to you now barely speak to once a month. You keep reaching out, you keep trying to make contact with them. Anything to get back that easy conversation that you used to have. Anything that will spark that old sense of humour that only they understand. In the end you walk away from the conversation feeling sad and let down because the past that you used to know is changed.
It is hard, you do view these things with rose tinted glasses and however much I want things to be the way they used to be it just doesn't happen. I can force the jovality but it's not the same. I guess it's time to move on and experience new things and new people. I guess now it's time to find someone else who understands those jokes and can comprehend exactly what i mean without me saying a word. That's the thing about relationships, they are cyclical. When one person leaves another enters.
I still remember though, those people who helped me through the difficult parts. Those people who helped me to open up and share everything that I was holding inside me. Maybe friendships are meant to be temporal, the changes they induce though, those last forever.